Trekking Down Memory Lane - Part 1

@just4him (309082)
Green Bay, Wisconsin
December 31, 2015 6:29pm CST
Trekking Down Memory Lane - Part 1 When it comes to good memories growing up, I don't have very many. For me to come up with seven for the childhood memories one was a challenge. So I'm going to trek down memory lane and see what I unearth that is worth remembering from my less than great childhood. I've read some great posts about your relationships with your parents and siblings, and I think that's wonderful. For me life was less than wonderful. My father, as I've come to realize in the past few months, is a bully. He never has anything good to say to anyone and makes you feel stupid for having the thoughts and opinions that you do. So it was during my childhood. It's hard to live with someone who is always putting you down for everything you do. Then there was my mother. She never had anything good to say to me either. Instead she just told me I would never amount to anything. Great thing to say to your kids. So were there any good memories? Other than the fact Mom was conveniently sick for every important event that happened in my life, like the time she spent in the women's bathroom at church - the whole service - on my Confirmation, and then I was expected to wait on her at dinner. So not right. Oh yeah, I'm trying to find the good memories. Something I've been trying to do since Mom died. There was the funny incident when she showed me how to make bread by watching her. She told me to put the cake of yeast in the warm water, and then a short while later told me to put the yeast in the dough and I tried fishing the yeast out of the water. It really was funny, but my mother ridiculed me at the time. Then there was the time when she was giving me a perm and I didn't get the bottle open fast enough for her and I ended up with a bloody nose because she whacked me in the face. Oh right, good memories. How about the time I cut my bangs in Kindergarten. I got a good spanking for that one. Um. How about the humiliation of not having a Halloween costume in Kindergarten, only a mask when I went parading through the classrooms with my class. I felt terrible. Then there was the time I had summer school - not a good thing back then. I was in sixth grade and I went to summer school to improve my reading comprehension. While in summer school I had to take a series of tests. I found out afterwards they were IQ tests to determine if I was retarded. My mother asked for them to be taken. By the way the tests proved conclusively that I'm not retarded. I was never called that again by my siblings who always called me that before I took those tests. End Part 1
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@jaboUK (64361)
• United Kingdom
1 Jan 16
Oh Valerie, what an awful childhood. Parents should be the people you can really count on for love and support.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
1 Jan 16
It was an awful childhood for her, I feel so bad that her parents did not love her and treated her like that.@jaboUK
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
@Marcyaz At the time I didn't see it as bad. I saw it as normal.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
I tried to do that for my children. You could say I learned what not to do as a parent.
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@fishtiger58 (29823)
• Momence, Illinois
1 Jan 16
I am so sorry about your childhood, you are a great person. I enjoy your posts and I enjoy joking with you. You have a great sense of humor. You sometimes just need to hear that. Have a wonderful evening.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
Thanks. I have two more parts to post. I've got it all finished.
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@fishtiger58 (29823)
• Momence, Illinois
1 Jan 16
@just4him I will be waiting.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
1 Jan 16
@just4him .. I will be waiting for the other posts to come up, my friend.
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@GardenGerty (157946)
• United States
1 Jan 16
I pray those thoughts will one day heal. I am glad they learned you were not "retarded", I suspect the bullying and such kept you from doing well. We sometimes have a little silent dialogue that runs that blocks out how we concentrate on things like school and life. Glad you made it here.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
1 Jan 16
Talk about bullies they are the worst, your parents. @GardenGerty
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
1 Jan 16
@just4him That is so bad that you had to deal with that as a child.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
Oh yes, the inner dialogue was my constant companion.
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
1 Jan 16
it sounds like you learned some hard lessons at a young age
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• Centralia, Missouri
1 Jan 16
@just4him there is that, learning of the what not to do, sad you had to learn it that way though.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
The biggest one was not to treat my kids the same as I was treated. I will not allow anyone to call anyone retarded. I also do my best to praise my kids. I'm not perfect, but I think I came out okay on that end.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
@Jessicalynnt My kids tell me I did okay.
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@Elizaby (6901)
• Pensacola, Florida
1 Jan 16
I have tired several times to comment since you first posted this but couldn't since your childhood so mirrored mine. But I had to take a step back and do some examination within to see if there were any areas of unforgiveness because some of the hurt was trying come up from where I thought I had laid it down. I am asking God tonight to help me make complete the forgiving of my parents for how Iwas treated growing up for they did not know better and to help me once and for all to cast them into the sea of forgetfulness where He puts ours when we truely repent.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
@Auntylou The funny part about my childhood is that I thought that was normal with all families. Even though I had friends who had nice parents, and I enjoyed being with them, I thought what I experienced was normal.
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@Auntylou (4264)
• Oxford, England
1 Jan 16
@just4him Yes , we tend to accept our lives as normal, since that is all we know as little uns
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@Auntylou (4264)
• Oxford, England
1 Jan 16
Sorry to hear that you too suffered at the hands of your parents. Hope forgiveness comes to you
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@paigea (35838)
• Canada
1 Jan 16
It sounds like so many unfortunate things happened to you as a child. I am glad you made it through all of that.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
I'm glad I made it through with my sanity.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
@paigea Determination and I started writing.
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@paigea (35838)
• Canada
1 Jan 16
@just4him You must have hidden resources.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
1 Jan 16
I am so angry at your parents for the way they treated you, how awful to have to be in that type of invornment. They were the people that should have been there for you not whack you and ridicule you.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
2 Jan 16
@just4him How sad that your mother was such a dictator and you only saw your father on weekends.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
I often told my mother I wished I were adopted so I could go back to my real mother. She was the dictator in the family. Dad worked second shift so I only saw him on weekends. I was in school when he was home and at home when he was at work. So weekends were my only real interaction with him. That was enough for me.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
4 Jan 16
@Marcyaz When I really got to know him, I was glad it was only on weekends. I don't think I could have handled his constant belittling opinions about everything.
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• United States
9 Jan 16
Wow...I have no words for the last part. I cannot even begin to imagine having my mother force me to endure something like that. And for your siblings to taunt you like that is despicable-do you have any kind of relationship with them now? You're a very strong woman to have gone through the things you have mentioned-and to be here to share it with us just tells me that you are even stronger than you realized. Bless you.
• United States
10 Jan 16
@just4him You survived two people that, in their own way, sought to destroy you-their own flesh and blood. THAT is what makes you strong. And you didn't break. Sometimes I wonder why some people actually have children, when they can't just love the child for who they are?
• United States
10 Jan 16
@just4him Wow-that had to be very difficult for your grandmother to admit about her own child!
@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
10 Jan 16
@scorpiobabes No, they didn't break me. My father's mother, my grandmother, told me Dad should never have had kids. I'm glad they did only because otherwise I wouldn't be here.
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@marlina (154165)
• Canada
1 Jan 16
So sad to read about how your parents treated you. Like someone said here "some people should not have kids". Or the least they could do is to take courses on how to raise their children.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
True. I am glad I was born, and I know God doesn't make mistakes. The one thing I wished for when my first child was born was a user's manual on raising kids. Funny thing is that I found it several years later - the Bible. Proverbs is a great Primer on how to raise kids.
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@softbabe44 (5816)
• Vancouver, Washington
1 Jan 16
That's so rude how you were treated so not far any way shape or form so bad to be treated this way.
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• Vancouver, Washington
3 Jan 16
@just4him Being treated in a way is not right
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
3 Jan 16
@softbabe44 So I've learned through the school of hard knocks.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
I thought that was normal and the way all parents treated their kids.
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@sueznewz2 (10409)
• Alicante, Spain
2 Jan 16
I am sorry these things happened to you...., but you are such a nice person and have come through them a stronger, better person....,
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
4 Jan 16
Thank you. I've tried a least.
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@Auntylou (4264)
• Oxford, England
1 Jan 16
So sorry your parents were so undermining. Not all people should have kids!
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@GardenGerty (157946)
• United States
1 Jan 16
@just4him But if your parents had not had kids, we would not have you.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
@GardenGerty Very true. I'm glad to be alive. There is one thing that I keep telling myself - God doesn't make mistakes. Even with who my parents are. I know that everything I experienced is for some kind of purpose, even if it is to be compassionate towards those who had similar childhoods.
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@Auntylou (4264)
• Oxford, England
1 Jan 16
@GardenGerty True indeed. And you are no failure Valerie
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@cindiowens (5120)
• North Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
1 Jan 16
Oh wow. How terrible. But you turned out great on your own accord.
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@just4him (309082)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
1 Jan 16
That's called determination.
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