Evil Emotion

@OneOfMany (12401)
United States
January 15, 2016 11:30pm CST
I have one of those emotional states we're not really allowed to talk about here. But I'm upset and I need to vent and I was happy before but now I'm not. So yeah, I was helping out a friend and we were having a good conversation and then she was talking about her boyfriend who had tried to break up with her and she got emotionally upset about it all and it was a lot of pain, and now they are back together and I said 'well good thing I know, I can remember to restrain my behavior'. And then said something else and she told me that's why her boyfriend 'doesn't like me'. Here I am encouraging them and because of a friendly nature he doesn't like me? I suddenly felt a surge of energy and felt that it was very good that he lives far, far away in a location I have no knowledge of. It makes me feel foolish for even encouraging them. Now I hope their relationship never works. Why? Because that's how I feel right now. A jealous boyfriend who in no way deserves the girlfriend who I already said I wouldn't go after and he tried to break up with doesn't deserve happiness. Sorry for her, but she can do better. Sorry for the rant, I'm just filled with evil emotion.
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@Shavkat (65270)
• Philippines
16 Jan 16
It does so emotional to read your epistle. In some point, I do understand where it is coming from. I had also experienced such intense feeling before. @Mike197602 I guess that is the situation.
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
16 Jan 16
My feelings of anger are really strong because of the history I have with that emotion. So the exact feelings I get from it can be rather extreme. But I know not to do things I might regret when I calm down. Too bad it took several hours to calm down.
@Shavkat (65270)
• Philippines
17 Jan 16
@OneOfMany I do the understand the feeling. In some instances, seemingly like the history repeats itself without noticing it. Don't worry my friend, it will come a point that you will pulled out yourself from it.
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
18 Jan 16
@Shavkat I'm not worried, I just wanted to know her situation and she turned it into a negative quickly. Sometimes I think she doesn't know what she's doing (well, she is bipolar, so that's likely).
@Jessicalynnt (47880)
• Centralia, Missouri
16 Jan 16
we are all human, and I would have been pissed at minimum there too
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
16 Jan 16
It seems like a slap in the face when you are trying to do a good deed. I wasn't happy about it one bit!
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
18 Jan 16
@PamJam I certainly wouldn't be happy about being pissed on! The dog did that once and I was very unhappy with it and it never did it again on account of how scary I got!
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• United States
26 Jan 16
@PamJam is it better to be the blocker or the blocked, the deleter or the deleted?
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@Mike197602 (13911)
• United Kingdom
16 Jan 16
you can talk about any emotion here. Do you mean you want this lady as your girlfriend and you feel jealous she's with someone else?
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
16 Jan 16
No, I mean that I encouraged them and because he doesn't like me being near her I don't want to encourage them anymore. I did fall for her, but I can't see being with her now. Not to mention we're on opposite sides of the continent.
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@Mike197602 (13911)
• United Kingdom
16 Jan 16
@OneOfMany what's the evil emotion then...anger?? Also if the boyfriend senses you've fallen for her or she's said something its pretty natural for him to not want you around her. If I had a girlfriend and I knew one of her friends loved her in a romantic way i'd not want them near her either...that's normal maleness.
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
16 Jan 16
@Mike197602 It is anger. I know it's normal, but I also am nowhere near her and encourage the two from very far away. Remember that he tried to break it off with her as well. They were broken up more or less, I comforted her during that time, and also told her that I wasn't more than a friend even if they were apart after that because I was already over her. Obviously this was either not explained or never came up. So he can go choke on his insecurities for all I care.
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@T_gray (7805)
• Salina, Kansas
17 Jan 16
I can totally understand where you are coming from. I can see where you would think that she deserves better. I hope the situation works itself out and soon.
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
18 Jan 16
Yes, I'm sure it will some time. Hopefully before she's heart broken again.
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@Teep11 (7137)
• United States
17 Jan 16
That's a tough situation.I hope it all works out for all. Wow! I would suggest if you feel the power of prayer then do that. You wouldn't want anything to escalate.
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
18 Jan 16
I find ways to channel my emotions. I wrote this post to help get it out of my system, and it worked. :)
16 Jan 16
I'm unsure why she felt the need to tell you that! Do you actually know him ... I mean have you met or is his animosity towards you based entirely on what she says to him?! Just curious. :)
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@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
18 Jan 16
I have never met him and it's just what she relays back to me. She is rather bad at explaining things, so I can see where the misunderstandings would come from.
@tallawah (9305)
• Kingston, Jamaica
16 Jan 16
There are honourable men in this world...a few...yes...but men who will virtually tie themselves up to prevent any relationship with a woman who was 'taken.'. All you can do for your mental health is become scarce. Just avoid her. Do what you have to do to avoid her. Eventually that relationship will collapse.
@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
16 Jan 16
Sacrificing friends just because they are dating a bad person is silly.
@tallawah (9305)
• Kingston, Jamaica
16 Jan 16
@OneOfMany no it is not. You will be sacrificed. When he tells her to cut you off, you will be cut.
@OneOfMany (12401)
• United States
18 Jan 16
@tallawah For now she's not interested in cutting anyone. She's kind of a needy person in that respect.