I am trying so hard....

@T_gray (7892)
Salina, Kansas
March 23, 2016 10:24pm CST
I have had another blah day today with my depression. I am trying so hard to get past this. The doctors are only trying to find something else to diagnose me with. It seems like the list of things I am diagnosed with is never ending. My family physician wants me to go see my psychiatrist to adjust my medications. My therapist agrees. I don't see my psychiatrist until the 18th of April. I might go in there tomorrow and see if I can get in sooner, but I really doubt I can. Until then I will keep trying to think positive, I will keep busy, and keep trying. I will continue my walking, and eating better. And I will try to reduce the stress. I am also trying to avoid people, unfortunately. I seem to be a little moody lately and snapping. Which isn't good at all. Being on myLot is helping keep me distracted. But I have to take breaks a lot because I am very tired. So bare with me as I am trying to stay caught up. I hope everything is going great with you all. What is something interesting that happened to you this week?
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@teamfreak16 (37071)
• Colorado Springs, Colorado
24 Mar 16
I'm a Bipolar with huge depression and anxiety, so I get where you're coming from. While people who are quite uneducated about it will just tell you to "snap out of it," as if it were that easy, I will just say hang in there and battle through it as best you can.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
I suffer from all that too, thanks for understanding. That bad days sure can suck
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@teamfreak16 (37071)
• Colorado Springs, Colorado
24 Mar 16
@T_gray - My girlfriend always thinks it's because of her. I have to keep telling her that I'm just going to be like this, for no reason, every once in awhile.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
@teamfreak16 Being in a relationship is the hardest part. Trying to find someone who fully understands is hard.
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• United States
24 Mar 16
Well let's see...I discovered that I am not as crazy as my therapist
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
haha, that's a good thing
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• United States
24 Mar 16
@T_gray It is..because half the time I am listening to her
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@miniam (9285)
• Bern, Switzerland
26 Mar 16
Lolz how true is that?
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@sharon6345 (105171)
• United States
24 Mar 16
Nothing much here to speak about. I suffer with all sorts of things even depression. You will be ok.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
I sure hope so
@sharon6345 (105171)
• United States
24 Mar 16
@T_gray You will see soon it will all work out. I wish you luck with it all..
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
@sharon6345 Thank you
@just4him (95874)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
24 Mar 16
Well let's see - I called the police on my son, and he's out of the house - that was Monday, yesterday I ordered my glasses online, and it's snowing - blizzard expected.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
yuck, yay!, an yuck...lol, hope the yuckiness gets better, How long till you get your glasses. I know I read your post but I can't remember now...
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@just4him (95874)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
24 Mar 16
@T_gray I should have them in 2-3 weeks. We didn't have a blizzard or as much snow as they predicted.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
@just4him Awesome and awesome....
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@miniam (9285)
• Bern, Switzerland
26 Mar 16
stay strong,it might not sound helpful but i found being alone helps quite alot, no one to annoy you with their smiles,comments. L inderstand well what you are going through
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
26 Mar 16
The annoying part is what gets me. I think right now being along is best for me. I just have to deal with my roommate at times...
@miniam (9285)
• Bern, Switzerland
26 Mar 16
@T_gray Lock the door and stay in your room(hoping you share flat and not rooms) When i suffered servere depression,l locked myself away to keep my sanity.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
26 Mar 16
@miniam I am staying in my room today. and probably will this weekend. But staying in bed doesn't help help with the depression but it helps with everything else...hehe...,
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• United States
24 Mar 16
bless yer heart, hon. i truly feel fer ya'n yer struggles :( i do wonder if'n ya aint got'n MTHFR gene mutation that might be the center'f it all? nah, i didn't curse (many folks think such, lol) 'n ya can look it up by those abbreviations - the words purty danged long. 's far's this week? outside'f gettin' too familiar with a seam ripper, i'm thankful 'tis been purty quiet...not countin' the high winds, which thankfully's jest a breeze today.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
26 Mar 16
I read a little on it...I'll read more on it later. Sounds complicated...hehe
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• United States
27 Mar 16
@T_gray 'tis complicated, e'en more so findin' any kinda doc with a clue 'bout it 'round here. wishin' ya the best'f luck!
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@kaka135 (13592)
• Malaysia
24 Mar 16
I am sorry to hear that you have to go through so much. I hope the diagnosis or therapy does help. Do you have any religious belief? I am not sure if it helps. I have heard that meditation can help with depression, it doesn't need to be related any religion. It might take time and patience. Nothing special happened here. I am just busy with my freelance project, some online work, doing some Easter crafts and spending time with my children. Hope you'll be better very soon.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
Yes, I need to pray more...and learn to meditate...That's a good start. Sounds like a busy week for you....
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@kaka135 (13592)
• Malaysia
31 Mar 16
@T_gray Yes, if you can, perhaps praying and meditation will help. But, remember to be patient. I guess I'll be quite busy until my baby is born in May, as I need to get some work done before my baby arrives, as I am sure I'll be busier when the baby comes. Meditation does help me as well, especially when I am too overwhelmed or stressed.
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@rina110383 (24253)
24 Mar 16
It will still happen but still covered by the week. I'll be visiting my parents tonight so I'll be with them tomorrow until Sunday. I live far from them and this short vacation is a timely one.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
Safe travels...enjoy your vacation...
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@rina110383 (24253)
24 Mar 16
@T_gray Thank you. I arrived few minutes ago.
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@Blondie2222 (19093)
• United States
26 Mar 16
I'm sorry to hear your still dealing with your depression. I hope the doctors can alternate your medicine and help your mood swings better. Nothing new with me this week just a busy week of work then had my nieces over for a sleep over Friday evening.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
26 Mar 16
I am hoping a med change will help
@kevin1877uk (36292)
26 Mar 16
I was great to hear you can see your doctor on Monday, I hope all goes well for you and something can be done, HUGS.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
26 Mar 16
It is great news. I am hoping for the best
@MsTickle (25007)
• Australia
25 Mar 16
if it's not a rude question, why are you seeing a psychiatrist?
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
25 Mar 16
I see the psychiatrist for my medications. And I also see a therapist as well.
@AnneEJ (5102)
• Dollard-Des-Ormeaux, Quebec
24 Mar 16
When I am feeling a bit down, I put on some of my Christian Praise CD's and begin to thank the Lord for all the blessings He has given me.
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
That's a great idea
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• Preston, England
24 Mar 16
hope things ease up for you between now and your April appointment - my week is about to be dominated by an science fiction convention
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
I hope things ease up too. I hope to read all about your convention. I wish I could go...hehe
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@Lucky15 (33754)
• Philippines
24 Mar 16
being here in the site can really be like an outlet
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@T_gray (7892)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
yes it is...
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