I am trying so hard....
By Tiff Gray
@T_gray (7774)
Salina, Kansas
March 23, 2016 10:24pm CST
I have had another blah day today with my depression. I am trying so hard to get past this. The doctors are only trying to find something else to diagnose me with. It seems like the list of things I am diagnosed with is never ending.
My family physician wants me to go see my psychiatrist to adjust my medications. My therapist agrees. I don't see my psychiatrist until the 18th of April. I might go in there tomorrow and see if I can get in sooner, but I really doubt I can.
Until then I will keep trying to think positive, I will keep busy, and keep trying. I will continue my walking, and eating better. And I will try to reduce the stress.
I am also trying to avoid people, unfortunately. I seem to be a little moody lately and snapping. Which isn't good at all.
Being on myLot is helping keep me distracted. But I have to take breaks a lot because I am very tired. So bare with me as I am trying to stay caught up.
I hope everything is going great with you all. What is something interesting that happened to you this week?
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@teamfreak16 (43419)
• Denver, Colorado
24 Mar 16
I'm a Bipolar with huge depression and anxiety, so I get where you're coming from. While people who are quite uneducated about it will just tell you to "snap out of it," as if it were that easy, I will just say hang in there and battle through it as best you can.
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@T_gray (7774)
• Salina, Kansas
24 Mar 16
@teamfreak16 Being in a relationship is the hardest part. Trying to find someone who fully understands is hard.
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@teamfreak16 (43419)
• Denver, Colorado
24 Mar 16
@T_gray - My girlfriend always thinks it's because of her. I have to keep telling her that I'm just going to be like this, for no reason, every once in awhile.
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@TiarasOceanView (70035)
• United States
24 Mar 16
Well let's see...I discovered that I am not as crazy as my therapist
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@TiarasOceanView (70035)
• United States
24 Mar 16
@T_gray It is..because half the time I am listening to her
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@kaka135 (14916)
• Malaysia
24 Mar 16
I am sorry to hear that you have to go through so much. I hope the diagnosis or therapy does help.
Do you have any religious belief? I am not sure if it helps. I have heard that meditation can help with depression, it doesn't need to be related any religion. It might take time and patience.
Nothing special happened here. I am just busy with my freelance project, some online work, doing some Easter crafts and spending time with my children.
Hope you'll be better very soon. 
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@kaka135 (14916)
• Malaysia
31 Mar 16
@T_gray Yes, if you can, perhaps praying and meditation will help. But, remember to be patient.
I guess I'll be quite busy until my baby is born in May, as I need to get some work done before my baby arrives, as I am sure I'll be busier when the baby comes. Meditation does help me as well, especially when I am too overwhelmed or stressed.
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@crazyhorseladycx (39515)
• United States
24 Mar 16
bless yer heart, hon. i truly feel fer ya'n yer struggles :( i do wonder if'n ya aint got'n MTHFR gene mutation that might be the center'f it all? nah, i didn't curse (many folks think such, lol) 'n ya can look it up by those abbreviations - the words purty danged long.
's far's this week? outside'f gettin' too familiar with a seam ripper, i'm thankful 'tis been purty quiet...not countin' the high winds, which thankfully's jest a breeze today.
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@crazyhorseladycx (39515)
• United States
27 Mar 16
@T_gray 'tis complicated, e'en more so findin' any kinda doc with a clue 'bout it 'round here. wishin' ya the best'f luck!
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@Blondie2222 (28611)
• United States
26 Mar 16
I'm sorry to hear your still dealing with your depression. I hope the doctors can alternate your medicine and help your mood swings better. Nothing new with me this week just a busy week of work then had my nieces over for a sleep over Friday evening.
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@kevin1877uk (36988)
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26 Mar 16
I was great to hear you can see your doctor on Monday, I hope all goes well for you and something can be done, HUGS.
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@arthurchappell (45002)
• Preston, England
24 Mar 16
hope things ease up for you between now and your April appointment - my week is about to be dominated by an science fiction convention
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@rina110383 (24495)
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24 Mar 16
It will still happen but still covered by the week. I'll be visiting my parents tonight so I'll be with them tomorrow until Sunday. I live far from them and this short vacation is a timely one.
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