Unpacking made me cry

@ramapo17 (18708)
Melbourne, Florida
July 10, 2016 11:34pm CST
As I was unpacking more boxes from our move, I came across a note book that I had when my mom was still alive and living in a wheel chair due to alztheimers and a stroke. She spent 3 years in that chair. I use to try all kinds of things to give her to do in her long day in a wheel chair. I hated having her sit there all day when she use to be so outgoing and fun. When I would visit I would give her coloring books, cd's to listen to, video's to watch and even some kids games. I ever tried teaching her to write on the computer and play the organ like she use to do. Mom has been gone a few years now and I never looked into one of the notebooks I gave her after the stroke. It broke my heart when I finally read it recently. It was her hand writing and she wrote my name and a few other things and on one page she wrote, "help, get me out". I still get chills when I think of it. No one ever saw that until that day and the tears just ran down my face.
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@just4him (89176)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
11 Jul 16
That would give me chills too. Wow!
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
11 Jul 16
It was really shocking. I think in a way it was better I found years after it happened. Nothing I could do about it then or when she wrote it.
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@just4him (89176)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
11 Jul 16
@ramapo17 I think so too. Her heart was breaking being in there, and she was able in a moment of time to express on paper what she couldn't formulate in words. She's free now, and you will see her again, and that should be your comfort now.
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
11 Jul 16
@just4him You are right and I do look forward to that day.
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@JudyEv (97028)
• Bunbury, Australia
11 Jul 16
I can imagine reading the notebook would make you cry. It would have been a very difficult situation but you obviously made every effort to make it easier for your Mum. Try to think more about the good times and the happy memories. Easier said than done I know but try.
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
11 Jul 16
I am just so glad I didn't see it when she was alive or I would have felt so much worse. I am still in shock that she even did that. Her writing was some what sloppier than she wrote but I would be able to tell it was hers. She had a very nice and unique hand writing.
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@garymarsh6 (12100)
• United Kingdom
11 Jul 16
OH dear how horrific to come across something like that. I don't have words sufficiently enough to offer you some comfort.
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@Marcyaz (36125)
• United States
11 Jul 16
That would have given me chills. Try to think on the positive and all that you did for her.
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
11 Jul 16
Thanks. I know I did everything I could for her and I believe she knew it too.
@Marcyaz (36125)
• United States
12 Jul 16
@ramapo17 Welcome, I know she would thank you for all you did for her.
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
12 Jul 16
@Marcyaz I like to think that too. We were very close.
@toniganzon (39875)
• Philippines
11 Jul 16
that would have made me cry too. I wished my mom had written a diary.
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
12 Jul 16
It makes me think that maybe I should start writing one now.
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@toniganzon (39875)
• Philippines
12 Jul 16
@ramapo17 I have kept journals for years now.
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
12 Jul 16
@toniganzon Does anyone ever read them?
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@annierose (17418)
• Philippines
13 Jul 16
I would probably feel same way. I feel sad thinking of our parents getting old. My mom started to get weaker just after my dad passed away. I hope she will regain her health. At the moment, she has cold again.
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
14 Jul 16
@annierose That is sad. I hope she gets rid of it soon.
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@annierose (17418)
• Philippines
14 Jul 16
@ramapo17 I hope so. She always think of negative things. I hope she will get rid of that attitude.
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@ramapo17 (18708)
• Melbourne, Florida
15 Jul 16
@annierose Some people are just like that and always thinking of negative things.
@responsiveme (14379)
• India
12 Jul 16
That is such a heart breaking sentence.
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