Better post before I forget
By Jekca
@Jessicalynnt (50525)
Centralia, Missouri
September 21, 2016 9:12am CST
Today is going to be rough. I can feel the panic attacks sitting in my chest, just bubbling to the surface. I know this is work related. I know, I know. I have a plan. I have to quit. But if we end up moving, which is looking more likely, no point looking for a job here.
So I need to hold on. I also need to pick up more OT, so I can get the flooring taken care of. The fence is bad, but the house can sell with it bad if it had too. The flooring and a few repairs need to be done before we can even get it listed.
Which means facing work MORE. Which despite knowing that it means I can quit sooner, is hard for me.
I need to win the lotto, all problems solved in one swoop....
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18 responses
@sallypup (58188)
• Centralia, Washington
24 Sep 16
I used to read horse stories with a vengeance when I was a kid. One story had a tiny girl trying to convince herself that she could get on a steeple chase horse and ride it over five foot hurdles. Her teacher said to "throw her heart over" before she headed out into dangerous territory. Hugs from me.
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
25 Sep 16
I used to read them too, I always wanted one, I think If I could have had a dog it wouldnt have been as big of a deal. All we could have were cats. I dont mind cats, but they arent as kid interactive as as dog.
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
27 Sep 16
@sallypup I have never had a cat that would fetch! Pounce sure, but fetch?
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@sallypup (58188)
• Centralia, Washington
25 Sep 16
@Jessicalynnt When I was a kid one of my brothers taught one of our cats to fetch a spit ball.
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@else34 (13517)
• New Delhi, India
22 Sep 16
@Jessicalynnt,Honestly speaking,I couldn't understand the post.Do you want to say you are playing lottery?How do you play lotto?
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
23 Sep 16
buy a ticket, chance winning. prob wont win, but I only spend a dollar a month or so on it.
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@else34 (13517)
• New Delhi, India
23 Sep 16
@Jessicalynnt A few years back one of my friends who used to sell lottery tickets persuaded me to buy a ticket and I won a small amount.That's was the first and the last time I won something trough lottery.
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
24 Sep 16
@else34 I know some people win big, but some will spend way too much money on it. I spend a little tiny bit, because I'd like to win, but I'm not wasting lots of money because I know I probably won't
@marsha32 (6631)
• United States
22 Sep 16
Yep, don't we all just need to win the lotto.....of course you also have to play to win, which I don't. Who has the extra $1?
If work is really that stressful for you, it would be best for you to go ahead and quit, honestly. It's not doing your health any good at all if it's causing you this much anxiety.
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
23 Sep 16
I do now and then, play that is.
cant afford to quit right now, would be homeless, going to see about paying some stuff off while i put out some more applications
@celticeagle (159606)
• Boise, Idaho
22 Sep 16
That would be nice. Hope things get better for you. Remember to be a ware of your breathing.
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@GardenGerty (157699)
• United States
22 Sep 16
Yes, definitely breath control helps.
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@arthurchappell (45002)
• Preston, England
21 Sep 16
hope the anxiety eases off and you are able to get the essential repairs covered ok
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
24 Sep 16
I lave Controlled breathing, I use it all the time to help,
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@GardenGerty (157699)
• United States
22 Sep 16
Oh, I have such mixed feelings about work, and working is for the home repairs and improvements. Have you tried any aroma therapy for your panic attacks? I know, that sounds very simplistic, but some lavender scented room spray might help. Do you work in an office or out on a sales floor type environment? You can come here and talk to us, maybe having listening ears and some sympathy will help. I do not think it will hurt.
@Tampa_girl7 (49159)
• United States
21 Sep 16
I dream of winning the lottery or just a load of money falling in my lap
@just4him (307541)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
21 Sep 16
Good luck on winning the lotto. If you play, you'll win it more than I do. If you don't, like me, you, like me, don't stand a chance of winning it. So more OT for you. I'll keep you in my prayers regarding your anxiety over your work. Focus on the fact you're moving and you'll soon have your house up for sale once the repairs are taken care of.
@CinnamonGrl (7083)
• Santa Fe, New Mexico
21 Sep 16
Well I'm cheering for you to win the lottery. And wishing you good things and less panic. I had work related panic in the past, so I know what you mean. Makes things so difficult.
@AbbyGreenhill (45496)
• United States
21 Sep 16
Sounds like Cathch-22 to me....you're caught between a rock and a hard place....stay calm.....
@responsiveme (22926)
• India
21 Sep 16
Good luck...take care. The lottery may happen but days will surely improve.
@Happy2BeMe (99390)
• Canada
21 Sep 16
You can get through this...look at the brighter picture ahead. All of this is only temporary. Better days await you!! A lottery win would make it happen all the more sooner though! Have a good day in spite of all that is going on.
