I should feel excited. But I don't.

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So friends, it is finally Halloween weekend and a band I really like is playing. Normally I look forward to them playing in town, way too much. Like, more than is reasonable. I consider a bunch of them in the band to be friends. Well I don't know how good of friends. Earlier this summer I was in a band - I invited one of my friends from this band to come see me. And he did! And the band I was in broke up - and now I find that the old "boss" from my band will be auditing with this band. I feel a little betrayed. I feel like my friend wasn't there for me. I feel like he was there to head hunt in my band. But I don't know anything for sure. So there's an odd tension there. Also an odd sadness. I miss the old band line up. They lost one of their players in January to suicide. Also this is the band's last date at this place near me. I don't know if they'll be back or when. I know I've simply given this band too much importance in my life, but I always have a self confidence boost when I go see them and a great time.... Thanks for putting up with my odd ramblings MyLot