How to survive?

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Without money, no one can survive, all is about money. I can have a house and car but without money they will be taken back by the bank. Feeling lost and regret after what my father said to me just now, I feel that I should stand up for myself. I have no one to complain and talk to, I only know mylotters who are very friendly to share their opinions on anything. I have depression plus schizophrenia, so whenever I work I cannot commit fully to my job, I always think my boss and colleagues don't likes me and they are very mean, actually they are very high expectation. So I don't do long job, I held for 2-3 months, I lose my job regularly. Which means I always apply job and resign. My only hobby is surfing the internet and do typing work. But the problem is I don't earn enough, for example a survey company will pay me after 4 weeks checking but I need money before 4 weeks to buy medicine and pay internet bills. Shamely my father stills support me but he is already 58 years old, nowadays he complaints headache, aching body, tired. I feel very sorry for him and mad at myself why I can't support entirely on myself. Is it I am different from other people around me, my friends which are already long time separated from marriage, work and everything. I have no patience in working, I always get fed up, but I want money, I can stand up and tell my boss, I want to resign and don't want to do anymore immediately. But how can I tell myself that I must do the job in order to survive?