24 hours + 7 days + 4 years = 0 %

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Back in June 2014, my life changed for having my three beautiful children to only one hour of visitation each month. I have started this blog to hopefully find and or start a type of support system. Even if not a single person ever does come across this blog. I just need my thoughts written down. Why, you may ask? Cps removed my kids from my care do to a failed voluntary drug test. I soon went to court two weeks after my kids were removed from my care. For that was what cps told me i needed to do. I went to the juvinille court in Kearny Mesa San Diego. Who then told me i would next have a hearing at the courthouse in Downtown San Diego for a trail and that meanwhile my kids were to remain in temporary custody with my boyfriends parents. My boyfriend is as well the father of my three kids. I had another month to go before i could even be able to see my kids. Time hurt me for my 24 hours + 7 days a week +4 years with my children had gone to 0% of their exstince in our home, hours past slowly. Tears didnt stop. Sleep was help at lease til i awoke of course. And worst my boyfriend the kids father who as well failed a drug test and was also ordered by court the same instructions. would leave me at our home alone almost every day for that whole month to go to his parents house. Where our children were. I painfully didnt have any options for i lefted my dads house at 17 years old for my boyfriend for he said if you leave with that guy dont ever come back here felicia!!!!!!..so i still never learned to drive i was totally dependant upon my boyfriend for i stayed at home while he worked for are kids were 4 . 2 and 1. . So when our kids did leave we let them take the flat lcd 46." Inch tv with them for they could see all there shows. So our house was empty no tv. Phone . Internet. Nothing literally with their toys . Furniture and tv gone . All that was lefted was but a table and our bed. So the hours passed even more difficult for me without any one or anything.