I thought I could do this...

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I have had an emotionally rough day. My stupid tablet keeps crashing, and it is making it so hard to post my products. Lots of wasted time. But the worst part was when I went to my Pinterest account to try to use some photos I had posted with my previous business. At first I found something amazing. According to Pinterest I average 8.2K views a month. How is this possible? How can I be this popular? You would think I was a celebrity. But the most emotional downfall I had today, was when I started sifting through the photos of the products I once I had... I have not seen these items since I lost everything. I had collectibles, very rare hard to find items, that I spent months and years locating, I wanted to have the most unique party supply store that existed on the Internet. Even eBay once told me that they felt like I would one day eventually be one of their millionaires. My store was very impressive. I never realized how hard this was going to hit me, but I just emotionally lost it. Literally lost it, after reliving the memories through viewing those photos. I literally had thousands of dollars worth of inventory on hand, plus a couple of suppliers close by if I ever needed anything, while I lived in Houston. Who am I kidding... There is no way that I am ever going to be able to get to this place again. I do not have the financial resources I once had. Plus my health is not what it used to be. I also do not have the electronic equipment that I need to be able to this, without it being so time consuming and cumbersome. It has taken me all day just to do a few posts, and this should not be. I had no support from anyone when I built my first business, but I just can not put myself through this again. I thought I could, but I just can't. It was way too hard the first time around. Plus...as mentioned... I had more resources than I do now, and my health was better. I just have to face the fact, that I was given a chance to be successful, and lost my opportunity. It is just the way life is...