Sitting here thinking

@leesnell (104)
May 16, 2017 8:21pm CST
How messed up my life has come to be. Like all of us we have dreams. My dream was to Marry the love of my life and have kids with him but that didn't happen. I have known this man for 33 years. He was my first love first kiss and everything else first. Things changed and I ended up having lost contact with him after he went to Jail for something stupid. So needless to say I had to kids with someone else and than I found him again and of course I was still in love with this man. We ended up getting back together. I became pregnant and ended up having a miscarriage which was probably for the better seeing we had just gotten back together. So we had waited 4 years and had a healthy baby boy. To sum it up we ended up splinting up 1 1/2 years later. I moved out but he continued to come see me and his son and stay asking me to have another kid with him. I refused because if I was going to have another kid I would want our relationship to work and I didn't see it happening. So he quit coming around and I fell in love with someone else and around 2004 he found out he had cancer and asked me to marry him and I said no because we were not even seeing each other. He wanted to make sure I was taken care of if something happened to him. Now the guy I was with we went on to have a good life together but he is now in Heaven. I am again back seeing the love of my life and he isn't very thoughtful of my medical problems which I have a lot to many to list he thinks I should be wonder woman. That isn't going to happen from this woman. Well what are you thinking about right now?
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@LicMaria (37)
17 May 17
i love to read stories of love, it is as if the live i.. and joy or suffer as appropriate, don't be sad, I'll tell you something always happens what has to happen, life is capricious, realize that if, from the outset, had been with the maybe never would have worked, there are battles that are lost before you start
@leesnell (104)
17 May 17
I agree we are set on a path of life and we run into people and things that we are to run into. I guess I am just wishing I would of had the ever after with the love of my life.
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• New Delhi, India
17 May 17
Good luck for life
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@leesnell (104)
17 May 17
thank you
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• New Delhi, India
17 May 17
@leesnell welcome dear
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@sugartoes (43222)
• Greencastle, Indiana
17 May 17
WOW that's a messed up deal you ended up with. but if I was you which I'm not but IF I was I'd let him know that you are who you are with the med problems you have that you can't help & if he has a issue with it then FIX IT.
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