I'm thinking about getting a divorce...
May 18, 2017 5:23am CST
I love my husband...I really do, but I'm sick. I'm very sick, and I don't know if I'm going to get better. The worst part, is that I know I'm not going to get better if he is still here. He isn't the support person I need him to be, and the pressure he puts on me just makes me weaker. I never thought that when we made those "in sickness and in health" vows, I would be so sorely disappointed. It hurts...so bad to even think about it. Plus we have an 8 month old little girl. When I saw the way he treated her tonight, it just pushed me over the edge. When I came home from the hospital last night, the doctor said I needed to sleep. Well, my husband didn't let me sleep. He made me take care of the baby all night. And today was his day off, so I had to do everything, while he napped. It hurts so bad feeling like you don't matter. I'm done. I just keep thinking about the things he's done...and not done. A year ago he deactivated his Facebook because he posted something stupid about not feeling valued on Father's Day (our baby hadn't even been born yet). I spent the whole day, 6 months pregnant, moving crap out of our apartment in a hurry, because he hadn't done it the entire time I was in the hospital (I had a rough pregnancy) and on move out day, I had to do it alone. So yes, I wasn't the most grateful that day. However, his friends, without knowing the situation, made vicious attacks on me. People I didn't even know telling him he should leave me while I was pregnant, and said things I can't even repeat. I felt awful. So, instead of standing up for me in front of his friends, he just deactivated his FB. The cowardice didn't end there, but I don't have hours to explain everything. I'm just hurting. I love him, but I know that my life would be so much easier without him in it. I'm going to apply for disability tomorrow on the advice of a friend. I need help. I'm broken, and as much as I would LOVE a full time job, I can't even get out of bed every morning. Maybe one day. Right now, I'm on a plethora of drugs to try and help, but the drugs come with their own unpleasant side effects. Well, I'm done boring you all. Hope you are all having a wonderful day!
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• Hemet, California
18 May 17
Oh definitely! It doesn't help I'm bipolar, but I take medication and really...the only things that are keeping me down are all things he should be helping me with. Our finances are in shambles because he refuses to get a second job, even though all of his coworkers with families have one, and he had two jobs when he met me...before he had a family. He just wants me to do everything, and I can't. I'm a strong person. I have 6 kids, and was a single mom for a long time, but I'm broken now. My friend keeps telling me that I need to be burned to the ground in order to rise up like a phoenix lol. I hope he is right! hahahaha
• Hartford, Connecticut
18 May 17
@cpefley yes, I know where you are coming from.. I have a household with 3 other roommates and for some reason I have to be the one to handle all the bills.. My roommate who is also an ex of mine and we have lived together on and off mostly on for the better part of 30 years now, tries to cut me down with words all the time.. I just let most of it slide off my back. I take a lot from these people and they have only see me really explode about 4 or 5 times.(usually then they are nice to me for a short period after that). then it just builds to the next time! I hope your situation works out. Maybe some kind of couples therapy? otherwise.. I think you have the right idea. Separating yourself from a toxic relationship is wise.
• United States
18 May 17
My advice.. if you have to write that you're thinking about divorce.. you should get it. Set an example for your little girl that she should never be with a man that doesn't support her or treat her well especially when she is sick. And I'm sorry you aren't well and that you don't have the support you should. Hope things get better for you.
18 May 17
I am so sorry for you, having a young baby is hard enough on it`s own ,being sick and having little support makes it even harder, I hope you have someone in your real life that is there to listen to you, if not please do not think you are boring us, even cyber friends can be a comfort I divorced my first husband twelve years ago and it was the most stressful time of my life, so please ,make sure you ask for all the advice and help you can get hold of.I truly wish you all the best and hope things improve for you soon, stay strong