Ticking Timebomb

Daytona Beach, Florida
June 17, 2017 9:47am CST
My husband has more patience and self restraint than anyone I know. Has since the day we met, and dealing with me and my idiosyncrasies on a daily basis is not an easy feat. With the current living situation, I'm amazed at his composure. The text he received this morning has my anxiety on the edge of lunacy. "No, you cannot have a key to the shed. " This is our home." I can't think of anything right now other than flying up those stairs screaming like a 4 year old who didn't get dessert. I've got anxiety/bipolar/ocd I can't remember, and I have been out of my meds for three weeks now. I'm in the bathroom currently, I'm sure he's wondering if I fell in. And hopefully we won't fight again when I decide to separate his markers and pencils. He truly can't understand why it is so important, and in pouring out my thoughts just now, I realize- - what's important is that it's a distraction. We are all ticking time bombs trying not to explode.
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RedBurnet
@redurnet (1799)
• United Kingdom
20 Jun 17
I have known people with conditions like OCD and it can sometimes get very bad especially if you get more and more anxious. I think perhaps if the condition starts to control you then that's when you need help such as medication or counselling but I also see people can live with the condition and manage the OCD as long as it stops at a certain point.
Oshy
@TiarasOceanView (70035)
• United States
17 Jun 17
Aw I have compassion..At least you are aware of all the details and this is a major advantage. Being out of control is not. Kudos to you!!! My son has the same and I let him organize or hide or do what he needs to do..no meds help.