My Cousin is Being Taken Off Life Support

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About a week or so ago my cousin had an aneurysm. She had to have surgery, a stent placed in, fluid drained from her brain. Her brain kept spasming so they were keeping her heavily medicated. I found out tonight that the family decided to take her off of life support on Monday. She is only 41 years old. I have not spoken to her in years. We had a falling out on Facebook and I blocked her. But she was part of my childhood and so many of the characters I come up with have had bits of inspiration from her. (She was a bully to us when we were kids but that certainly made her memorable.) Just because I wasn't on speaking terms with her and didn't want to have her be part of my life anymore doesn't mean that I want her to die, though. Right now I am feeling regret that I never got a chance to make up with her, although maybe that would have never happened anyway. I don't have much to do with my dad's side of the family anymore. She is the mother of six kids, two who are still underage I believe, so I wonder what will happen to them. I don't think their fathers are in the picture. It's upsetting when people from your childhood die, especially ones who had such a big (if not necessarily pleasant) presence. I guess in some way I loved her, even if I didn't necessarily like her. I am sad that this happened and also feel like I don't have the right to be sad, since we weren't on speaking terms. I hadn't seen her in years but for a while we were friendly on social media, until we had that falling out over something stupid. Kinda makes you stop and rethink cutting off people over Facebook drama. You never know what the future holds and maybe you won't get the chance to reconcile in the end.