I'm numb again.
By Traci Davis
@TraciDavis (355)
Mesa, Arizona
September 13, 2017 5:53pm CST
I thought yesterday was going so well. And then my husband decided to tell me that his mom was yelling at him about Mira when she was really telling him that he needed to be home to help me. We wound up getting into a fight about it and I know my Mira, (7 year old daughter) is a lot to handle - even for me. But he is so negatibve that this morning when I was trying to work with her on correcting some behavior he got mad at me for sounding sarcastic when I wasn't at all. And when I told him that and that I'm just trying to figure it all out, he told me that I never listen to him and every time he tells me how he feels it turns into a fight and I take it all too personally. I've reached a point in my depression that its hard to even fake a smile. I can't even cry. I just feel numb. With time, this too shall pass. He has 13 more days till surgery and on that day if he hasn't started fixing his behavior then he will either have to go to rehab or find somewhere else to live because I can't handle all his damaging negativity while trying to prepare for my baby's first birthday party and trying to correct my daughters bad behavior. Wish me luck.....
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@kprofgames (3091)
• United States
14 Sep 17
It's hard when you don't have that moral support when working with children. Parents need to be a team when it comes to behaviors. Sorry this weighs so heavy. Maybe it is time for a break between the two of you if nothing else to just get a break from each other and re-evaluate why you're together.
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@TraciDavis (355)
• Mesa, Arizona
16 Sep 17
We may not have a choice. Since he's an addict he's been gone and when he's home, he's so high that he's pretty much just asleep. He has till the 26th to get his act together or his mom is going to tell him that he can either go to detox and then rehab or leave until he can be clean. I'm just hoping he makes a good choice.
@kprofgames (3091)
• United States
16 Sep 17
@TraciDavis That's sad and hard to live with no doubt. A person has to want to stop. Almost like they need to hit that rock bottom before they realize they have to do something. Can't be easy on you or your children.
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@TraciDavis (355)
• Mesa, Arizona
16 Sep 17
@kprofgames No, it isn't but I'm not giving up on him, even if that means showing him that I can be tough for our family until he figures it out.
@andriaperry (116860)
• Anniston, Alabama
14 Sep 17
I wish the best for you. Only you know if you want him to leave or stay and I am sure you will make the right decision for you and your family.
@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
13 Sep 17
I'm sorry for all your going through. =( I really hope things improve for you soon.
@Courtlynn (66921)
• United States
14 Sep 17
Sadly, it doesnt sound like he should be there. Especially with having kids there. I hope things get better.
@Happy2BeMe (99399)
• Canada
13 Sep 17
I hope everything works out. You are dealing with so much and reaching your breaking point which is understandable. You hav4 every right to correct your daughter. He didn't have to interfere and then put you down. Maybe time apart will do all of you good.
