I'm Exhausted!

United States
September 20, 2017 12:47am CST
Sorry I haven't been around much today. My sister came over this afternoon and we walked to the library where she volunteers once a week, which is about a mile away. It was hot and we were both tired and sweaty by the time we got there. I ran into a friend while she went off to do her volunteer work. My friend was at one of the self-check out computers and was digging around in her wallet for her library card, when an impatient older bald man came up behind her, removed her book from the scanning pad, and proceeded to check out his books instead. There were two other computers he could have used and that was completely RUDE! We were both speechless that he did that. She said something passive aggressively as he was walking off, but he didn't hear her. I could tell she wanted to say something to his face, but unfortunately as women we have to think of our safety so she bit her tongue. Some people have a lot of nerve, though. She had been in the middle of telling me that she was going to be homeless after the first when that man came up and did that. It wasn't like she was just holding up the line chit-chatting, she was casually talking to me as she looked for her card. I guess that man felt entitled enough to just toss her book aside and claim the computer for himself, because god forbid he wait a few minutes. Anyway my sister and I were only at the library for a short while and then we walked back to my apartment, where we visited for a few more hours. My sister is having a lot of health problems lately and she doesn't know how much longer she'll even be able to volunteer at the library, as just pushing around a cart of books and restocking the shelves takes a lot out of her. I suspect she may also have fibromyalgia since so many of her symptoms are similar to mine, but good luck to her getting diagnosed. She is currently without a doctor because her last one just kept blaming everything on anxiety. She has bad carpal tunnel and can barely use her arms anymore, but it's just "anxiety." My sister is worried she has something like multiple sclerosis. My primary doctor agreed to take her as a patient, but the stupid receptionists at the clinic won't schedule her an appointment since they are not accepting new patients. They keep saying they have to ask the doctor and then they'll call back but they never do. While she was over, we were discussing why it is that so many people in our age group seem to have so many health issues. My friend I saw today at the library is also having health problems. And so many of us have anxiety on top of it and then get told it's all anxiety, when it's really not! My sister's blood pressure skyrockets so high sometimes she has to go to the ER to get them to bring it down, or else risk having a stroke. That may be due to her panic attacks, or maybe the fact that her blood pressure is getting that high is causing her to panic. She does have bad anxiety but not all of her issues are anxiety related. I wish she could get in to see a good doctor who will rule other things out, so if it IS just anxiety, she will at least have the peace of mind knowing that there is nothing seriously wrong with her. She is only 35 and she shouldn't have to live this way. I wish doctors would stop being so quick to write everything off as "anxiety." I saw a doctor last year who did the same thing with me without even doing a physical exam or sending me for blood work or anything. I think it's the lazy doctor's diagnosis when they just don't want to deal with you. Anyway, my sister didn't leave until after 6:30 this evening and I am exhausted. It will likely take me the next couple days to recover from our outing and visit. I like visiting with her and getting out of my apartment now and then, but it sure sucks the energy right out of me.
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@TJGray (67)
• United States
20 Sep
i suffer from anxiety and panic disorder, myself, on top of depression. So i can relate. Doctors usually don't pay much attention to my physical symptoms because they automatically think it's because of my mental health. I finally found a doctor who seems to care enough. I'm going to see a rheumatologist in October for pain I've had for sometime now, thanks to my new doctor who is taking the time to do the blood work and testing. I'm hoping y'all the best
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• United States
20 Sep
Thank you. I also suffer from chronic major depression, anxiety and panic disorder, but not everything is caused by those things. I finally got a good doctor last year who listened to my concerns and sent me to specialists to rule out any serious issues, which ended with a fibromyalgia diagnosis. Now at least I can get treated for that (and I suspected I had it for over a decade.) I am hoping my sister will be able to get in to see my doctor and have her concerns taken seriously. Too many doctors just brush us off as being crazy, or claim that our symptoms are all "in our head." Good luck to you too, I hope seeing the rheumatologist brings you some relief!
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@TJGray (67)
• United States
20 Sep
@Srbageldog I've heard all the bad stigma that comes with fibromyalgia. I don't believe a word of it. I've seen it effect too many people. My partner also has it. My doctor is thinking I might have it, hence all the testing. Personally, I'm praying I don't because, like i said, I've seen what it does to people. At the same time, i want to figure out what is wrong so I can start treating it. I'm glad you found a good doctor. I know of my many, many years of dealing with doctors, therapist, psychologist, and specialist that it is hard to find the right one. Anymore, i don't hesitate getting a second opinion or finding someone who suits my needs.
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• United States
21 Sep
@TJGray I have heard the stigma that comes with fibromyalgia too, and I worry that I will have trouble being treated seriously by some doctors. But the specialist who diagnosed me is very respectable with years of experience. Still, I have already encountered other doctors acting like it's the "crazy diagnosis." My vein specialist demanded to know who diagnosed me with that and suggested I try hypnotherapy to "cure" myself of it. Fortunately my primary doctor and my therapist both recognize it as a real condition and treat it as such. My therapist even said she was going to add that diagnosis to my file because it can contribute to depression and anxiety. It sucks that all doctors aren't all on board with recognizing it as a real condition and not just some made up thing they tell you when they think you're crazy. I also worry that maybe there is something else they are missing and maybe it is really something worse, but I figure if it becomes worse in time, then I'll deal with it and push for more answers, and hope the doctors won't just write everything off as being part of fibro, the way they have done with anxiety and depression. But I will deal with that if and when it ever happens. And yes, it's always good to get a second opinion. The neurologist who diagnosed me was actually the second opinion I sought after the first neurologist I got sent to was a rude jerk and had no interest in diagnosing me or even really treating me for anything.
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@singhisback (2180)
• Jalandhar, India
20 Sep
That was too bad. Where are the manners these days
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• United States
20 Sep
Some people seem to lack manners.
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• Jalandhar, India
20 Sep
@Srbageldog I hate those people
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• United States
20 Sep
@singhisback So do I.
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@Courtlynn (65464)
• United States
20 Sep
Oh wow. What a jerk he was! I wouldve said something to his face. Female or not. I hope she can find a good dr soon.. is she least lookibg for one?
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• United States
20 Sep
She's been trying to get in with my doctor. I told her to just come into the office with me at my next appointment and talk to them in person. Maybe she'll have better luck that way. If not...I don't know what she's going to do. Her last doctor is a real b*tch.
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@Courtlynn (65464)
• United States
20 Sep
@Srbageldog that or just go in altogether, and try to be added
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• United States
21 Sep
@Courtlynn I keep telling her to do that and she won't. She kept making me call to try to get her an appointment for her too because her anxiety is so bad she can hardly use the phone.
@sol_cee (14336)
• Saint Vincent And The Grenadines
20 Sep
He must have had a bad hair day.
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• United States
20 Sep
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@sol_cee (14336)
• Saint Vincent And The Grenadines
20 Sep
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20 Sep
so many of us have anxiety though too. i always worry that one of these days i really will be having a heart attack or something & won't know it because of my anxiety issues.... i often wonder who actually always feels good?
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• United States
20 Sep
I wonder the same thing. I have multiple conditions that cause me to have chest pain and I'm always terrified I'll have a heart attack one day and just brush it off as costochondritis, anxiety, GERD, etc. And I wonder if anyone feels good too. I've never felt good, ever. Everyone tells me "welcome to getting older," but I've felt crappy since I was a little kid.