I'm Exhausted!

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Sorry I haven't been around much today. My sister came over this afternoon and we walked to the library where she volunteers once a week, which is about a mile away. It was hot and we were both tired and sweaty by the time we got there. I ran into a friend while she went off to do her volunteer work. My friend was at one of the self-check out computers and was digging around in her wallet for her library card, when an impatient older bald man came up behind her, removed her book from the scanning pad, and proceeded to check out his books instead. There were two other computers he could have used and that was completely RUDE! We were both speechless that he did that. She said something passive aggressively as he was walking off, but he didn't hear her. I could tell she wanted to say something to his face, but unfortunately as women we have to think of our safety so she bit her tongue. Some people have a lot of nerve, though. She had been in the middle of telling me that she was going to be homeless after the first when that man came up and did that. It wasn't like she was just holding up the line chit-chatting, she was casually talking to me as she looked for her card. I guess that man felt entitled enough to just toss her book aside and claim the computer for himself, because god forbid he wait a few minutes. Anyway my sister and I were only at the library for a short while and then we walked back to my apartment, where we visited for a few more hours. My sister is having a lot of health problems lately and she doesn't know how much longer she'll even be able to volunteer at the library, as just pushing around a cart of books and restocking the shelves takes a lot out of her. I suspect she may also have fibromyalgia since so many of her symptoms are similar to mine, but good luck to her getting diagnosed. She is currently without a doctor because her last one just kept blaming everything on anxiety. She has bad carpal tunnel and can barely use her arms anymore, but it's just "anxiety." My sister is worried she has something like multiple sclerosis. My primary doctor agreed to take her as a patient, but the stupid receptionists at the clinic won't schedule her an appointment since they are not accepting new patients. They keep saying they have to ask the doctor and then they'll call back but they never do. While she was over, we were discussing why it is that so many people in our age group seem to have so many health issues. My friend I saw today at the library is also having health problems. And so many of us have anxiety on top of it and then get told it's all anxiety, when it's really not! My sister's blood pressure skyrockets so high sometimes she has to go to the ER to get them to bring it down, or else risk having a stroke. That may be due to her panic attacks, or maybe the fact that her blood pressure is getting that high is causing her to panic. She does have bad anxiety but not all of her issues are anxiety related. I wish she could get in to see a good doctor who will rule other things out, so if it IS just anxiety, she will at least have the peace of mind knowing that there is nothing seriously wrong with her. She is only 35 and she shouldn't have to live this way. I wish doctors would stop being so quick to write everything off as "anxiety." I saw a doctor last year who did the same thing with me without even doing a physical exam or sending me for blood work or anything. I think it's the lazy doctor's diagnosis when they just don't want to deal with you. Anyway, my sister didn't leave until after 6:30 this evening and I am exhausted. It will likely take me the next couple days to recover from our outing and visit. I like visiting with her and getting out of my apartment now and then, but it sure sucks the energy right out of me.