Low Self Esteem And Disliking Oneself

United States
October 16, 2017 8:14pm CST
Life is funny and strange every single day. Sometimes I just wonder what goes in our heads as we go through life one day at a time. Sometimes I think about our purpose, which is something we all do and think about how were so imperfect and how annoying that is. You want everything to go well for once and then it's easy to feel like you just hate yourself and how worthless you feel. I just get so mad at myself when I can't do something or when something goes wrong. You think about how you don't ask to be born or how you'd wish things would go tight and smoothly for a change. I have low self-esteem sometimes. I don't think I'm beautiful and I think I'm an all right person when I am in a good mood or have a good day, but other than that, I feel like I'm ashamed of myself or something. It's a depressing feeling I get often on myself and I don't like it. In the end, you just want to disappear.
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17 Oct 17
It's hard to feel that way but you have to be strong and find other things that would make you feel better, like me when I was going thru post partum depression, I did alot of out door activities so my body would produce more endorphin .
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• United States
17 Oct 17
Thank you for your kind words. I feel like I have a purpose in this world, but I am wasting my time or not doing it, and I want to be a good person, but I don't feel like I am, even though others may tell me I am. I mean, as a child, I never had like many deep friends and I was the last one picked for games, but I grew stronger out of that. But sometimes you need a moment, you know? I decided to buy adult coloring books and keep myself busy with that and word search puzzles, and when you do multiple things during your day, you feel like you have accomplished a lot. And like you said, aoutdoor activities are very good for you too. =)
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17 Oct 17
keep at it @runningthegalaxies. never let the universe drag you down. :)
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• United States
17 Oct 17
@averagejane Yeah! Ha ha! But sometimes you just wanna go and live in another reality. A reality where everything is good and peaceful, like heaven.
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@nangayo (2325)
• Nairobi, Kenya
17 Oct 17
Learn to love yourself. I know there are times when you feel down especially when someone comments something bad about you. Do not stay low. Treat yourself and your body.Wear good clothes look in the mirror and tell yourself you are beautiful.
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• United States
17 Oct 17
Thank you for the advice. You're right. I have such a hard time so it's easier said than done. I get so sensitive when it's my own family members more than someone out there. That's what hurts the most, but then again families fight all the time and then are happy and love each other again. So I need to learn to love myself a little more.
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@nangayo (2325)
• Nairobi, Kenya
18 Oct 17
@runningthegalaxies You are special in your own way and in there you have a talent go for it and you will discover so much about yourself.
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• United States
18 Oct 17
@nangayo Aww, thank you so much, that means so much to me. We are all special in our own way defitinitely. Thank you for making me smile tonight. =)
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17 Oct 17
You are your own worst enemy. Don't get yourself down. You are valued in this world and will find your place in it. We all have days were it just feels like there is a rain cloud over our heads.
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• United States
17 Oct 17
That is really good advice. I totally forgot about the whole "you are your own worst enemy" and it's so true. Our mind plays tricks on us all the time, telling us how to think and act based on the negative emotions we feel. Why is it that it's easier to feel all the bad energy from the good? That's so creepy.
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17 Oct 17
@runningthegalaxies that is a good question and I don't know why. It's like no matter what we also find some negativity.
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• United States
17 Oct 17
@candycanedec Yeah negativity is so evil. It always finds a way to take over us. We just need to learn techniques to stop it.
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@Kosgey (1292)
17 Oct 17
Life is that way, we all have ups and downs
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• United States
17 Oct 17
The funny thing is that we know that but then we act accordingly to how we feel at the moment. A day goes good "life is perfect" and a day goes bad "I wanna disappear."