Problem with myself

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So this is the problem I had when I was still schooling. My grades are poor and I can't barely understand what the teachers say because of I have develop depression and schizophrenia. I imagine when I graduate and start to work, my life will be better, but it is not. I did not mention to any colleagues or bosses about my mental illness so that they will treat me like a normal person. But all these years, I doesn't stop discriminating from the society, no one talks to me like mylotters do. I feel scared and uncertain about my future and starts to job searching and I found that I can actually earn online. And I stay at home for a long period, although my mum doesn't like it, she always put up face to me. Now I feel that online money is not enough, what else job I can do? I have tried being a clerk for legal firm, trading firm, insurance, telemarketing, teleinterviewer for survey company and lately I really lost appetite to work anymore. I just want to stop moving and doing stuff. I really don't know if I could live up to my old age, for your information I am 36 right now. I don't like commitment as I feel they can really push you to dead end and make you stop breathing. I can only take up flexible work.