I'm no longer his one and only...
By Toni
@toniganzon (72279)
Philippines
November 29, 2017 5:09pm CST
He used to hug me tight and kiss me all the time.
He used to miss me when I'm gone even just for a couple of hours.
He used to never mis saying 'I love you,' every single day.
He promised there would be no other woman.
He promised I'd be his love forever.
He promised he'd take care of me when I'm old and weak.
If only I had recorded his promises...I knew this day would come. I told him he'd break his promise and he even insisted he wouldn't. He was only 4 years old then.
My son, is now a young man.
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
When my son was very young like 5 until he was 9 he promised I'll forever be his only love. But I know kids are too young to make such kind of promises and I know it's something that I shouldn't. rely on. I even told him, someday, you'll find someone you'll love and I won't be your priority.
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@shaggin (71671)
• United States
30 Nov 17
@toniganzon yes I know exactly how you feel. We want to watch them grow but we also want to keep them small forever!
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
Even though we know our children aren't our possessions and even though we know we can't have them in our lives forever, it's still heartbreaking to see we stop to be their priority, their only love, and their only protector.
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@ilocosboy (45157)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
That's the reality of our life, but the love will always in his heart
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
I know that but it's still difficult to know that someone I held in my arms and someone who made me the centre of his world could change.
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
@ilocosboy Yeah I know. I have seen that from other people.
@ilocosboy (45157)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
Someday he will give you apo and your world will change again
@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
1 Dec 17
@toniganzon
Hahaha. And that would be a different story.
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@Happy2BeMe (99390)
• Canada
29 Nov 17
I know that heartache when our little boys grown up. I feel your pain.
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@yanzalong (18982)
• Indonesia
2 Dec 17
I know how you have always loved your son.
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
2 Dec 17
It really is. I just wish he'd never keep any secrets from me.
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
7 Dec 17
@bluesa Right. I know I have to respect his privacy but I don't want him keeping anything from me.
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@bluesa (15023)
• Johannesburg, South Africa
6 Dec 17
@toniganzon, I wish that too, for you, it is tough as a loving parent to find out there are secrets.
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@ridingbet (66857)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
when i and my son sleep in one bed, during his younger years until his first year high school, he had the routine of kissing me and saying, "goodnight, Ma,sweet dreams, see you in my dreams, i love you". then, he thought of sleeping alone in another bed.
but he still kisses me goodnight, when i or he leave the house, or after he had his bath.
our sons are already grown-up (my son) and growing up(your son).
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
My son moved to his own room at around 10 years old. He started to have his own world by then, But it's when he reached grade 7 that he stopped kissing me.
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
2 Dec 17
@ridingbet I have no doubt he is a very good son. He makes me proud all the time.
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@ridingbet (66857)
• Philippines
1 Dec 17
@toniganzon but there is still some tenderness when he should talk to you. he is proud to have a mother like you, and although he does not show it, i believe you have a very good son.
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@YrNemo (20261)
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30 Nov 17
They are all like that 
. I remember seeing a mother taking her son to school, at the classroom door, she gave the 5 YO a kiss, he promptly and indignantly wiped it off, saying, 'mom, people are looking!' (She burst out laughing, while all of us giggled...)
. I remember seeing a mother taking her son to school, at the classroom door, she gave the 5 YO a kiss, he promptly and indignantly wiped it off, saying, 'mom, people are looking!' (She burst out laughing, while all of us giggled...)1 person likes this
@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
Wow that's too young! My son was very sweet until he was 10. He moved to his own room about that age and then he started to have his own world without me. 
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@toniganzon (72279)
• Philippines
30 Nov 17
@YrNemo Oh I hope my son marry someone whom I approve of lol!
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@YrNemo (20261)
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30 Nov 17
@toniganzon Some sons always return to their mothers, to their wives' annoyance. Some goodbye to their moms long before 5YO .
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@misunderstood_zombie (8142)
• United States
30 Nov 17
I'm sure he will be there for you always, but how cute he was at 4.
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