Christmas Will Never Be the same ...

My father with my daughter during his battle against esophageal cancer
December 17, 2017 10:49am CST
I have a happy childhood memories of Christmas. Good old times when all of us , kids, parents, aunts and uncles, grandma and grandpa , gathered in our living room enjoying the delectable dishes my aunt and mum prepared, over a light and happy conversation. Times when I and my two siblings got to open our gifts, check what's inside our Christmas socks and who got the most money. We got married and have kids of our own so Christmas and New Years eve were even merrier. Then, grandpa died of old age. We were a bit sad and we missed him durig Christmas holidays and everyday but we survived and outgrew our sadness. A couple of years passed, Gradma, joined him. We seemed have accepted the fact that it was her time to go so we moved on despite our longings . We were still celebrating Christmas and New Year but it is not as happy as it used to be. We all seemd to continue the tradition but there's emptiness inside... Then, my father died because of cancer two months before Christmas It was hard though we tried to live a normal life but it is difficult to ignore the pain. Our first Christmas without him, my mother spent it crying alone in their bedroom. No one had the desire to cook, although we still have food , even such looked sad. The happy conversations faded and seemed like a distant memory. NOw, Christmas is just around the bend, I dread to feel the same sadness again. Ah, Christmas will never be the same again for me...
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@sallypup (27984)
• Moses Lake, Washington
17 Dec
Its hard to lose a loved one in December. The brother nearest to me in age suddenly passed on two days before Christmas. He was only 43. That happened years ago but of course it still haunts me. Take care.
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• Derby, England
17 Dec
I know how you feel. I lost my mother to cancer when I was younger, then my Dad and now I am the oldest family member !!
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@marlina (76618)
• Canada
17 Dec
I do understand perfectly well how you feel .
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18 Dec
Thank you, Marlina. Pain is always part of growing and being aware o the harsh realities of life. However, it can make us stronger. Take care.
• Kathmandu, Nepal
18 Dec
I can understand how you must have felt. This is difficult time. We pray you to have a spectacular and prosperous life further. And wish you'd be given that strength to cope with pains. Thank you!
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18 Dec
Hello, losing a loved one is never easy. And though we may look like we have moved` on vrom such loss , in reality , we only have learnt how to live without that person. In God's time, everything will heal. Thank you, Aashish.
• Kathmandu, Nepal
19 Dec
@iamfemme Yeah I totally agree with you! Thank you!
@cttolledo (5056)
• Philippines
18 Dec
You're christmas will never be the same indeed!
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18 Dec
Sadly, I have to admit that it will take time to fully heal from such loss, but I know, one day, things will be as happy or even happier than I can remember before.
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@cttolledo (5056)
• Philippines
19 Dec
@iamfemme Yeah.. you will be healed and happy thereafter .. just a matter of time.
@dgobucks226 (13283)
17 Dec
So sorry for your loss of family. I am sure it is very difficult to lose someone around the holiday season. Memories are something not easily erased. I go through this every Christmas, because my Mom made all holidays so special. During these times, since we cannot erase memories, I strive to focus on happy, positive ones. I try to remember this quote during the hard times....
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18 Dec
Oh, my dear.... you got me teary eyed.... I am lucky that I still have mum to celebrate Christmas and all the special thigs and events in my life. Thank you or sharing that wonderful quote with us here. Always take care, my dear. Stay happy.
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@dgobucks226 (13283)
19 Dec
@iamfemme Thank you, I appreciate the kind words
@rina110383 (24072)
18 Dec
I understand how you feel.
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@Wogiam (66)
• United Kingdom
17 Dec
Sad to read about your losses, it is never easy to adjust without love ones around to share in your celebrations and joys. I hope you will be strong for your Mother and other family members, your family who have passed away would want nothing less. All the best.
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18 Dec
Thak `you, Wogiam. All o us is trying to be strong for each other. Yup, you are right. If father were still alive, he wouldnt want to see us sad. One day, we will be together again. Then there will be no more tears. Thank you and take care.
• Jacksonville, Florida
17 Dec
I hope this Christmas will be happy again for your family. I'm sorry for your loss.
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18 Dec
Thank you, Jennifer. We are trying to stay on the lighter and happy side. We still have a lot o reasons to celeb rate. My father and grandparents will be watching us and celebrating with us from above.