What Memories Do You Recall?
By Shiva
@Shiva49 (26231)
Singapore
December 28, 2017 1:53am CST
Our past replays all the time. It influences the present and also thoughts of the future affect our approach and thinking.
Subconsciously my memories envelope me though I like to recall the sweet ones that bring a breath of fresh air every time I reminisce them. It is mostly the kind acts of others and also how I weathered some storms that could have affected me in a negative way though they did less damage due to my attitude and some luck.
It is in my nature to think more of those who are no more than those who are still around. Sometimes I feel their presence interacting with me like how they did when they were alive. When out of the blue they come to my mind I think they are also connecting with me from another realm; maybe you too have had similar experiences.
Memories have a soothing effect on me and I feel grateful when I recall the part I had played at that time. I have mostly been lucky that there are no bitterness and I take the few negative incidents as lessons well learned; fact of life that excludes none.
Hopefully, you will also share your thoughts on memories.
Image: Memories
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@TiarasOceanView (70035)
• United States
28 Dec 17
Yes I can relate to this Siva..recently in my hours of deep distress, I had felt my deceased relatives presence at night. It was comforting. I too believe there are different levels of existence, unseen to us.
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@TiarasOceanView (70035)
• United States
28 Dec 17
@Shiva49 It certainly is..I believe my Father comes to me the most..as when I was a child he took my fishing very early in the mornings.
Who is it that comes to you Siva?
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@Shiva49 (26231)
• Singapore
28 Dec 17
@TiarasOceanView Thank you Ocean Tiara, nice to think aloud on such issues - siva
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@LadyDuck (459577)
• Switzerland
28 Dec 17
Memories are sweet and sour. I remember those who are no more, the happy moments we shared, the very sad moment when they had gone. There are memories that haunt my minds, no matter how much you try to chase them, they come back to remind you that life is not always happy and easy.
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@Shiva49 (26231)
• Singapore
28 Dec 17
I recall some who behaved in inexplicable ways. It never made sense at that time and, on recall, even now. My take then is it is their problem and certainly not mine; I can only account for my actions.
I am never one to get even. I move away leaving them to their own devices.
When those I was close to are gone, I pray they find themselves in a better place, I think of them with gratitude and thankful for having met them - siva
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@Shiva49 (26231)
• Singapore
28 Dec 17
@LadyDuck My father passed away twenty years ago.
My mother is suffering the ravages of age in her body though alert.
That makes me wonder whether there is any quality in our lives after a certain age or what point living when we are totally dependent on others.
I know instances where eighty year olds look after their parents and that is really tough!
At times children pass away before their parents when the latter live too long.
I feel the presence of my father when I am with my mother telling me to press on - siva
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@innertalks (21087)
• Australia
28 Dec 17
“Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.”
Haruki Murakami, a Japanese writer, said this.
I do not like remembering my past. I always blame myself for the way it is, and I don't want to remember any of it, because I always wish that things could have been better, and different.
Memories do not so much warm me up then, but more burn me to pieces, like hot coals falling through my mind.
One particularly painful one is about how I bombed out of my University course, because I was so indifferently uninterested in it. I had no motivation, and I wasn't even sure about if it was the right course for me anyway. I did not know what that was. I still do not know what I want from life.
I dropped out after two years, and found myself then unemployed for a year or two, before I landed a lucky job, which at least I stuck with then, for the next twenty years, still painful years though, as I knew I was not doing what I really wanted to do.
I knew it to be something different than this, but I didn't know what it was. I had no idea, and still, I am blank about this to this day. That's why I do not like remembering my past. So much of it has been "wasted", in me doing things that I have no love for at all.
The picture used here is taken from the free media site: Pixabay.com
They say elephants have powerful memories, so I hope they are not also all painful ones, like mine all are.
@Shiva49 (26231)
• Singapore
28 Dec 17
That is tough on you Steve, I think you are more sensitive than me and most others.
My father played a part in shaping my thoughts and attitude though I am quite different from him in behaviour. He did not seem to worry, a practical person, all through his life but highly disciplined.
I joined science stream for my college studies but I was not interested. Then chartered accountancy was coming of age and that promised a good career. When I joined CA course after graduating in commerce I joined a firm and was asked whether I was really keen - my reply a gentle smile! The retort was "most end up not as Chartered Accountants but as Shattered Accountants!" Soon I was comforted by the realization "accountants are first to be hired and last to be fired".
My two brothers were focused; one an engineer another a specialist doctor. Frankly I was interested only in literature. I know five languages and am fascinated by words and, like you do, how people play with them.
Online sites fit me like a glove. I try to revel in them and when I saw a newbie here yesterday joining at 96, I thought I too can hang around if you can keep me company! siva
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@innertalks (21087)
• Australia
28 Dec 17
@Shiva49 Thanks for your sharing, and for your comforting words here siva.
Yes, still active at 96, as a newbie here, knowing how to use a computer. Amazing!!
I did have a lot of distractions along the way too.
I tried to be a perfectionist, and when I saw this was not possible, I never wanted anything less!!
I played more chess at Uni, than studied. I had a pipedream that I could be good at it. I become a good club player, but it always annoyed me that my brain was not gifted enough to take me to the top in this game.
It was the same with most other things too.
I became good at playing the violin, but because I could not play it how I wanted to play it I also dropped that. I thought I played it too mechanically, with little real feeling.
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@Shiva49 (26231)
• Singapore
28 Dec 17
@innertalks To be a perfectionist can be tough on us. I go to an extent like you would have seen in my postings and responses but I set a mental time limit to get them out.
At work I had to complete my schedules within time limits and I had to compromise between accuracy and completing work on time. It was a trade off most times.
I also played chess but when I met one who was too good at it I knew I can only go thus far.
My working career is over and I have no regrets. I went for balance as my work was not going to benefit society. Online sites give me fulfillment through interactions and I do not want to go further than that - siva
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