Don't Feel Much of Anything

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Christmas just sort of happened around me this year. I was numb to it. Which in itself depresses me because I have a 2 year old and htis should have been one of the best Christmas celebrations ever. And she had a great day. But I did not. At 1 pm on Christmas day, I had to help my first baby, cross the rainbow bridge. If you've followed me on any of these writing sites semi-regularly, you've heard/read about all the adventures of crazoid. His real name was Zoltan. He was my baby. And he is gone. My heart hurts. I feel numb. I still can't believe it. I dont' know what to say or do or how to act, nothing is normal, no thing is right. I appreciate you letting me get this off my chest. I miss my boy so much I can hardly stand it.