Demons. We all face them.

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We all battle demons. Some are worse than others. It all depends on the power of our own minds. As you all are aware I am unemployed. Just typing that out makes me grind my teeth. I am a mother and wife to be, I cannot just be sitting at home. I need to be out making money and providing for my family. It kills me to see us run out of things left and right. Normally I would go out and buy more. Now I can't. Now we have to budget. Now we have to go without certain things. So anyway not to rant and complain. But staying at home all day everyday is eating me up! Occasionally I will go visit some family or friends just to get out of the house. But the rest of the time at home, with my beautiful daughter. It is great being with her. This also a time of healing and self improvement. This is also a time where I face my demons. Oh how badly do i want to call my ex employer and go off. I cant help but feel so angry towards her. How are you gonna let somone go a few days away from christmas? With no explanation. You told me the day before how good i was doing. The struggle not to go off on anyone because I'm angry at myself. The struggle not to be negative. I have been sober for over a year. Oh the struggle not to walk down the street to the liquor store. Or to start smoking again. We all have our demons. Its best to do anything you can to get away from them. I started reading the bible. I'm not religious but it helps. I start reading positive quotes. I sit and admire my daughter. I join her and play. I get back on the computer and start applying for more jobs. What are some struggles and demons you face?