I’m a coward

@gaianoor (1144)
Tirana, Albania
January 11, 2018 5:20pm CST
I know I love him, i knew this for a long time. But no matter what I say i will never find the way to put this out. I’m sure he doesn’t like me and don’t want to loose him at least as a friend or maybe this was what i was thinking till some weeks ago. Now what i want is to get away from him so i will create something new for me and for my life. I really wish i can get him away from my heart.
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8 responses
• Philippines
12 Jan
Better do something else that would distract you from thinking about him. Maybe you should talk to him, maybe it's just infatuation.
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
Yeah working on that. Trying to find some new hobbies.
• Philippines
12 Jan
if you're sure that he wouldnt like you in return maybe you can try to divert youre attention to a different things to keep you busy.
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
For that reason i started myLot, to talk and not think about him as much as i do, but there are some days that i go back and have all those feelings.
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• Philippines
12 Jan
@gaianoor what if he knew then take advantage of you? hope he wont but who knows, maybe he is just waiting
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
@Strawberry18 It`s not one of those types who takes advantages. For that i`m sure. I have this feeling that he knows that i have feelings for him, but he does not have the same feelings and try to be a friend always.
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@Theresaaiza (10466)
• Australia
12 Jan
I would be one to just walk away but then again, I have not fallen in love with a friend. I had a crush who became my friend and eventually my feelings changed. He became nothing more than a friend. But that's about all. Why don't you try and tell him? Seeing as how you are that ready to walk away no matter what his reaction is anyway, you've got nothing to lose I suppose? Rather than live your life wondering "what if".
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
I don`t have the courage to do it. I more afraid of the rejection, what i can get from it. I always thought that "what if" it will kill me but, maybe if i told him a long time ago it could have been more easy for both of us. i`ve tried many ways to tell him but when i`m about to start telling something, something else will come out.
@Theresaaiza (10466)
• Australia
12 Jan
@gaianoor He will ask you why you're distancing yourself from him - you better have a good alibi
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@Starla_9 (261)
• United Kingdom
11 Jan
Love is beautiful but can also be cruel. Things will end up the way they are meant to *hugs*
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
Thank you for the hugs. If its meant to be something will happen`, but for now..,.
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@Starla_9 (261)
• United Kingdom
12 Jan
@gaianoor exactly, what’s meant to be will be. All the best
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
@Starla_9 thank you
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• United States
12 Jan
That's sad, but if you don't think he likes you then maybe you should create a new life away from him.
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
I`m working on that. Just had a text from a group we are together on WhatsApp and i told them i have things to do and can`t meet them, just don`t wanna meet him.
@nela13 (6923)
• Portugal
11 Jan
Wish you all the best and that you find a boy that deserves you.
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
I wish that too. It`s not that i think he does not deserves me, but there is something wrong in all this and i can`t go on.
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@nela13 (6923)
• Portugal
12 Jan
@gaianoor you are right, you you have that feeling thenyou should move on.
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
@nela13 I will try, don`t know if i can do it
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@Shavkat (62564)
• Philippines
12 Jan
Sometimes there are things that we cannot have. It is also nice to conceal one's feelings if we think that it wouldn't work. I had such feelings with my best friend before and I tried to fight back because it will break the friendship.
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
That is what i think. But the decision i`m trying to have lately is that i will not meet him, i will not ask him to go out, so i can be distant. Tried this before and after some time i`m back to where i was before. I feel a little stupid.
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@Shavkat (62564)
• Philippines
12 Jan
@gaianoor That's what I haven't tried it. If you think it is best, then I will support you on that.
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@sol_cee (15439)
• Saint Vincent And The Grenadines
12 Jan
Oh dear..
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@gaianoor (1144)
• Tirana, Albania
12 Jan
yeah i know, no one wants to be in that position.