Being believed
By angel_smiles
@Lolaze (5093)
St. Louis, Missouri
May 17, 2018 8:25pm CST
I’ve been very frustrated over the last week or so because I’ve realized the outpatient program I’ve been going to doesn’t take my problems seriously. I thought that they did, especially with my mom when I explained the recent physical abuse that occurred after I broke my ankle and her horrible treatment of me in general the past months. I found out the therapist there must not have believed a word I’d said when we had a meeting and she acted like my mom’s best friend. It was so bad she even allowed my mom to start laughing when asked to name a few of my good qualities! Their doctor also dismissed a severe psychotic episode as nothing - I think he believes I was making it up for attention. My caseworker, well if she believed me about anything she’d have to put me on a safety plan and meet with me multiple times a week...she can’t even bother to meet with me twice a month like she should. (Thankfully I will meet my new caseworker on June 12th).
Today I saw my psychiatrist and she took everything seriously! Now, there really isn’t anything we can do medication-wise as we are already working on increasing my mood stabilizer but just her acknowledging I’m really struggling made me feel better. We made sure we still agreed on my emergency plan - take a dose of suchandsuch, if it doesn’t work call her, if whatever idea she comes up with fails then it’s time for the hospital.
My individual therapist also believes me. It’s just that I haven’t known her for as long so it doesn’t have as much impact that she believes. So at least today I’m really feeling heard.
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@Starmaiden (9311)
• Canada
18 May 18
Does your mother accompany you to your therapy sessions? If so she should remain outside while you speak to the therapist alone.
A professionally trained counsellor, therapist, psychiatrist would recognise a narcissist when they meet one. (That would be your mother) and narcissists cannot be believed. If your mother laughs at you for any reason and is not supporting you emotionally, that is narcissism. I know. I had a narcissist mother.
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@Lolaze (5093)
• St. Louis, Missouri
22 May 18
@Starmaiden Thankfully she’s not my real counselor but just one at the group program. I quit the program today.
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@lookatdesktop (27129)
• Dallas, Texas
18 May 18
A good therapist does listen and empathize well in other words, understands the concerns of the patient and takes time to listen to you. I am glad you had that talk.
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@lookatdesktop (27129)
• Dallas, Texas
18 May 18
@lnillerman , this will be a good start. Trust between patient and therapist is very important to be able and willing to move forward in a positive way.
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@Lolaze (5093)
• St. Louis, Missouri
18 May 18
@lnillerman I will get better. I have bipolar disorder and this up and down stuff is just how the disorder goes.
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@lookatdesktop (27129)
• Dallas, Texas
18 May 18
@Lolaze I have bipolar disorder but then the world is full of ups and downs that perfectly match my mood swings. The funny thing is, it makes me want to cry when I should be laughing. Like when I watch Dr. Phil on TV. It makes me upset to watch people abusing other people and airing their dirty secrets for all to see. It is not good therapy for people like myself to watch. In fact, most of the stuff I look at on the internet is bad therapy for me. I imagine you have your ups and downs as well. For ever dark cloud, however, their is a rainbow after a storm.
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@Letranknight2015 (51537)
• Philippines
18 May 18
I don't know if I would still believe if I have seen something like that. But if you feel a little bit better, then good.
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