I Want To Become An Introvert

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I have been doing this for some time now, I think about what I want to do within a year and go for it, then I have the five year plan, which did bypass me before of working two jobs, so I had to forgetaboutme. But the ten year plan was/IS to find another well paying job/ business, more brain power less physical power. Meaning no more caregiver because its just hard on the body and mind. No more rentals, they have to be maintained and with age that gets harder and harder. Although I know a couple that still had them when they died at the ages in the nineties. When I make a suggestion of what I would like to do, as in start a new business, my family shoots it down like I am being ridiculous. So last night I was telling Tony I have several deliveries coming and he asked what they were, I got an eye roll and I asked "why does everyone always ignore what I want? I want to try something new now, if it does not work it was worth marking off the list, go to something else and get established before the last minute!" Later he said he didnt mean to shoot down my ideas. Today in the car on the way back home, out of no where Tony said " You know you have land that can be cleared and a couple trailers be put in but you`ll have to have septic put in." On this day I wonder if I am ever heard. I have been trying for 2 years to get that land cleared and small homes put on them, I am not crazy about trailers but if they are cheap enough I would do those. Although I don`t want to always be a landlady I am now, I have asked and asked another cousin to help clear it and I pay him, nothing yet. So for now I am still the same me, doing the same jobs but I will build that other dream, nourish it even of it uses all the space in my office. I will not give up, when I get started I will share and with photos. Excuse the .... I don`t know what to call this discussion. How was your day?