I'm Not Ready

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After the dream I had this morning I am not ready to start dating. I have been single for almost a year and a half and I don't feel like changing that any time soon. Unless someone just seems to find their place for me. Dating just takes up so much time, I'm still young and I have a lot of things I want to do and I want to fix on myself before I go into dating. But I like to think about it sometimes because yeah I do get lonely, but who doesn't? After the dream I had last night I know I am not ready to start dating. I had no idea who the person was in my dream but I was going on a date with him and he was psychotic. It was terrifying. So bad that I had to rush onto a bus to get home and I panicked because I thought he was going to come find me. Then I managed to get over to my grandma's house because he didn't know where she lived and I was just so scared and ready to just delete myself from the internet and everything. And then I woke up and cuddled my alpaca stuffie because I was having a panic attack! My chest actually still hurts from it it was so bad. So yeah! No boys or girls for me because goodness sakes that was terrifying! And then a while later my mom comes in and we were talking and we were spooked out of our minds when my phone rang. A random dude who waved to me on Facebook, I never added him, just waved back called me on Facebook messenger. And I remembered or maybe that was just my mind playing tricks on me that the dude in the photo looked like the guy in my dreams! I ignored the phone call because I don't answer my phone unless I know you are calling because 1. I hate talking on the phone and 2. I don't want my phone bill to go up. The guy then messages me, "I don't text." Dude, then why did you try to contact me on Facebook? That is so creepy! Just no, nope, no no no, I am just going to cuddle my stuffies and be happy being single because people are so freaking strange!