Sometimes, I really just want to quit quitting
By Traci Davis
@TraciDavis (355)
Mesa, Arizona
April 16, 2019 1:55pm CST
So, I realized something along my journey of quitting smoking cigarettes - while I know it's not healthy, I LIKE smoking cigarettes. I like it. Having that crutch like others have wine or shopping, or whatever else is nice because I've gotten so used to my hobbies that they aren't really that theraputic for me anymore. BUT - all that being said - I still would rather give that up and put that money towards my kids.
Rather than investing in a crutch that I really don't need, I'm going to invest in the future of my children by striving to create stability for them now. Once I realized that, the anxiety got more manageable, and I stopped craving it so much. I'm just about to change out my nicotine patch, and i wore it for an extra 3 hours today, trying to push myself towards being able to just not have it on at all.
Step by step, day by day. It's the best choice in the long run - but now I have to find another crutch. -_-"
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@marguicha (215918)
• Chile
16 Apr 19
It helped me a lot to visualize a goal. I discovered that with the money I saved, I could have dream vacations every years. Still, several years later, I had an MRI for other purposes. I have an emphysema after smoking for decades. It will not grow bigger, but it will not disappear.
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@TraciDavis (355)
• Mesa, Arizona
20 Apr 19
Dang! Well it's good that it won't grow bigger. It's the quiet time to myself that I miss the most. If I don't get some time to myself and just breathe or do something I want, I start shaking so bad that I can't stand up. Right now, I'm basically putting that money back into my kids instead of my lungs. At least that's what I tell myself when it gets hard. I'm doing it for them. The craving passes and I go hung my babies or look at their pictures (if I'm at work) and it helps a lot.
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@TraciDavis (355)
• Mesa, Arizona
3 May 19
I'm still trying. Giving up is never an option. I may stumble, but I will always rise and that includes with this battle as well! I'm still struggling, but I'm still fighting for it. Thank you for commenting!
