A Complicated Grief
By Diana Bauder
@BloggerDi (3113)
United States
July 29, 2020 12:27pm CST
I sort of disappeared from myLot for the past three weeks. I've spent some days in shock and traumatized, and I've been taking care of funeral arrangements, legal and financial matters and spending time with my family.
My husband suddenly died at home from cardiac arrest on July 5. He was only 60. He was seemingly healthy and fit for his age. He only drank in moderation and never did drugs or smoked. Everyone is shocked.
He and I had been separated for quite awhile, but we still lived on the same property. Recently I had been considering different housing for myself. He had made initial calls to a divorce attorney. Our marriage had been quite troubled for a long time.
However, we were married for 35 years and we were still each other's best friend in so many ways.
I'm doing as well as can be expected. I'm worried about my two adult children. But we all live in the same town and we have a lot of love and support here- for which I am extremely grateful.
Now to move forward, one day at a time.
(Photo is mine- A family trip to St. Louis, Sept. 2019)
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@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
4 Aug 20
Thank you so much @marlina. I am finding some moments of peace actually, and I'm very grateful for them.
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@lovinangelsinstead21 (36850)
• Pamplona, Spain
31 Jul 20
So very sorry that has happened to you and sending condolences to all of you and your family.
Its good that you have a lot of support around you also.
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@lovinangelsinstead21 (36850)
• Pamplona, Spain
4 Aug 20
@BloggerDi
Does not matter to me how late anyone is you just take care of yourself that is the most important of all.
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@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
4 Aug 20
Thank you for your kind condolences. I apologize for my late reply. @lovinangelsinstead21
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@JamesHxstatic (29253)
• Eugene, Oregon
10 Oct 21
Having seen a more recent post, I was aware of this shocking loss. Again, I am sorry to hear of it and I wish you and your children well.
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@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
10 Oct 21
I so appreciate your kind condolences and wishes @JamesHxstatic.
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@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
31 Jul 20
Thank you for the sweet words @DianneN.
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@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
31 Jul 20
I appreciate your kindness @CarolDM.
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@CarolDM (203452)
• Nashville, Tennessee
31 Jul 20
@BloggerDi Any time. I understand. 
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May God give you and your family strength and comfort.@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
31 Jul 20
I appreciate your caring words @kanuck1.
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@Orson_Kart (6114)
• United Kingdom
30 Jul 20
So sorry to hear this sad news. Hopefully he went quick and didn't suffer. A shock for you all. Sending lots of love at this difficult time. xoxo
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@cherriefic (10400)
• Philippines
29 Jul 20
I'm sorry for your loss. Hoping that you will feel better when the time comes.
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@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
31 Jul 20
Yes I have been in a somewhat surreal state until the past few days. The numbness is starting to wear off and the tears are flowing more easily now. Thank you so much @JudyEv.
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@Sojourn (13836)
• India
29 Jul 20
Such a sad news. My dad is 63 and have angina. He used to be heavy smoker in his working days but he stopped after retirement. He remains disturbed in this unusual times we all are going through in this virus .
May his soul rest in peace, what else can I say.
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@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
31 Jul 20
Thank you @Sojourn. I hope your dad will feel better soon.
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