Friday - 10.29.21.

Photo Credit: I snapped this picture (using Snapchat) on our way to my sister's bridal shower back in August.
@tammys85 (29952)
Baltimore, Maryland
November 15, 2021 7:18pm CST
Alrighty, it’s time to continue to talk about my sister’s wedding weekend (which was also Halloween weekend). I recently posted about Thursday, 10.28.21., so now it’s time to talk about Friday, which was the day before my sister’s wedding. The day started with my best friend and I running back to the mall we were at the day before because she needed to pick up an order. I don’t think we stayed long at all. It was raining pretty hard, so the set-up and rehearsal were postponed until the next morning. Luckily, my sister’s fiance could still see her in person (as long as she wasn’t in her wedding dress, and we all made sure he didn’t see the dress before the wedding). So the rehearsal dinner at my brother-in-law’s family’s restaurant was still on, and we were still helping with a few things, so my best friend and I still went to my brother-in-law’s sister’s house. I had a little bump in the road. One of his sisters gave us a program book early, and they looked nice. But it said there would be a moment of silence in remembrance of the bride’s parents (and it had their names). I think that reminded my best friend to give me the necklace her sister had made for me. It had a picture of my parents on the front, and the back said “Your Wings Were Ready, But My Heart Was Not”. It hit me all over again that my parents are gone, and I was just so down for a while. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, this is just how grief works. I eventually snuck into the bathroom to have a release cry, and then I told myself to get it together because we had things to do (and if I didn’t stop myself, I’d be in there longer). I did feel a little better after releasing it. I kept the program book, by the way, and the necklace is in a safe place. My younger sister got there shortly before I snuck away, and she asked me what was wrong, so when I finally told her, she was like “Yeah” -- meaning it kind of hit her too. Oooh, grief, you kind of suck. Anyway, we eventually went to the restaurant for dinner, and it was a nice time with a lot of laughter. :) We stopped by the grocery store and headed back to the house for a bit. Eventually, my sister and I headed to the hotel that she had already booked for herself. I didn’t have to go, but she offered and I like staying at hotels for some reason lol. Once we got there, I showered, took a Melatonin and hit the hay. Welp, the next time I post about this weekend, it’ll be the wedding day. :) But as you can see, I’m doing this one day at a time, so that I can post about other things too lol. Take care, everyone. :) Photo Credit: I snapped this picture (using Snapchat) on our way to my sister's bridal shower back in August.
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@Courtlynn (66918)
• United States
16 Nov 21
Grief really does suck! Such a sweet gift though. I'm glad you were given it and you could get on with the day for your sister.
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@tammys85 (29952)
• Baltimore, Maryland
16 Nov 21
Definitely. :( And thank you so much!
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@tammys85 (29952)
• Baltimore, Maryland
18 Nov 21
@Courtlynn Everyone would've been supportive, but thinking about it, I don't know if I wanted the attention. I just wanted to let it out and move on. I hope it's not like this on Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve and Christmas, but if it is, I'll just ride the waves. I'm excited for the holidays, somehow, but I also don't know how I'm gonna feel once those days actually arrive.
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@Courtlynn (66918)
• United States
16 Nov 21
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@RasmaSandra (73678)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
16 Nov 21
When grief strikes it is best to find a way to release it,
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@tammys85 (29952)
• Baltimore, Maryland
16 Nov 21
I did by crying, but then I wanted to get back to the wedding prep.
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@Nawsheen (28643)
• Mauritius
16 Nov 21
Is the wedding this weekend?
@Nawsheen (28643)
• Mauritius
17 Nov 21
@tammys85 okay. Looking forward for your next post
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@tammys85 (29952)
• Baltimore, Maryland
18 Nov 21
@Nawsheen Thanks! It'll most likely be next week because my posts became a lost cause this week lol.
@tammys85 (29952)
• Baltimore, Maryland
16 Nov 21
No, it was Oct. 30th. I just haven't had the time to post about it.
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@kaylachan (58119)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
16 Nov 21
Yes, grief really does suck. It can hit you when you least expect it.
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@tammys85 (29952)
• Baltimore, Maryland
16 Nov 21
Absolutely. :( I'm learning to ride the waves rather than to avoid it altogether, so I guess I've made progress over the last 8yrs (I used to immediately distract myself when I'd feel sad about Daddy).