"just forget about them"
By Fae Maverick
@Fa_Maverick (9458)
Australia
September 16, 2022 9:05pm CST
A nice little statement to p*ss me right the f*ck off this morning. I wish I could... I wish there was something to simply blank them from my memory... Its almost like they think I find thinking about people that have harmed me to be one of my favourite pass times... I can garuntee that thinking about getting groped by D or cornered by Bishop and... Well, some of you know the story... Isnt fun for me. It's awful especially when I get what I can only describe as body memories and I feel everything they did.
Why did someone say this to me? Because I had another weird dream and decided to tell one of the "real people" in my life about it instead of all of my "imaginary online ones" why tell "real" people things when the "imaginary" ones are so much more supportive
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@moffittjc (118591)
• Gainesville, Florida
17 Sep 22
Some of us aren’t just imaginary online friends, some of us are real online friends who care about your well being and who are there to listen when you need to get things off your chest. Whether it’s a friend 1 km away who you can talk to in person, or a friend 10,000 km away you talk to online, we’re here for you. Just remember that.
I’m sorry you had this experience when trying to talk to someone. I hope you’re okay after having another weird dream.
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@Fa_Maverick (9458)
• Australia
19 Sep 22
@moffittjc Eh I did get told my priorities were wrong because I shouldn't be thinking about anything other than my assignment at the moment... I mentioned taking my work over to Cs when I stay the night on Wednesday and spend the public holiday with him... If I wasn't prioritising my work then I wouldn't be taking it with me... I need to prioritise more than one thing or I'm gonna have nothing but assignments to do because no one will want anything to do with me.
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@moffittjc (118591)
• Gainesville, Florida
19 Sep 22
@Fa_Maverick Yes, it’s called balance. It is possible to make more than one thing a priority in life. Your assignments would drive you insane if that was the only thing in life you made your priority.
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@Fa_Maverick (9458)
• Australia
20 Sep 22
@moffittjc well I am staying over at his place tomorrow night... Mum made me write down his full name, address and contact details though.
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@porwest (78759)
• United States
17 Sep 22
Life is tough. But it is also short. Carrying anger, remorse, or even bad feelings, no matter how horrible the events, should be let go of. The road ahead is an open road, full of new fulfilment and opportunity to go places we have not been—and the road behind us is just that. Something we can leave behind and never have to travel again.
That is not to say old experiences, and I am certain yours were horrible, don't have an impact on our lives. Of course they do.
But you can either let them tear you down and allow the abuse of the past to continue to abuse you forever, or you can let go of them and REALLY tell the abusers to eff off by living your life as though they never happened.
When you allow the abuse to affect you today, what it means in simple terms, is that the abuse never ends, and the abusers continue to win.
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@porwest (78759)
• United States
20 Sep 22
@Fa_Maverick I am glad to hear that. And when it comes to "friends," always keep in mind that true ones will sometimes be brutally honest and not simply tell you what you want to hear. At the same time they will also listen more intently, and be more understanding—because they genuinely care.
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@Fa_Maverick (9458)
• Australia
21 Sep 22
@porwest people should still be tactful... If I did that to anyone in my life they just wouldn't be there anymore.
oh yeah I know that noone is obliged to listen to me it is heavily disturbing stuff. Yeah it sucks when they dismiss me but like ¯\_(?)_/¯
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@Fa_Maverick (9458)
• Australia
20 Sep 22
@porwest youre not at fault here or insensitive I just reacted to the idea of my abusers continuing to win because people have dismissed me using that cause they dont want to hear about "ghost hands" which is how I describe the sensation of being groped or whatever else the "ghost hands" do... Not your fault though you didnt know...
I surprise myself with how well I do function and Im not just a cowering mess in my bedroom day in and day out... Though I have my moments but thats usually after months of burnout.
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@RebeccasFarm (86846)
• United States
17 Sep 22
Sorry you were rattled.
I understand ..
It is very annoying and disheartening to receive such brainless reactions to something you are trying to share that is so serious.
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@RebeccasFarm (86846)
• United States
18 Sep 22
@Fa_Maverick I have a few of those myself ugh
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@vickyrose (2235)
• Cooma, Australia
17 Sep 22
We can’t control peoples’ reaction, some can be so insensitive. Take care!
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@Fa_Maverick (9458)
• Australia
17 Sep 22
Gonna hide in my room all day too tired to interact with people. Do need to do some of my assignment
@JESSY3236 (19009)
• United States
20 Sep 22
Some people just don't get dreams. I'm not imaginary.1 person likes this
@Fa_Maverick (9458)
• Australia
17 Sep 22
The person I told about my dream has said to forget about my abusers which I had a dream about that recreated the awful scenarios that they put me in...
They also said that the people on mylot I know are my "imaginary friends" so I shouldnt talk to them about anything and instead talk to them because they are "real"
I was trying to talk about it because it set off very real issues for me.
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@josie_ (9763)
• Philippines
17 Sep 22
@Fa_Maverick Sorry for my insensitivity. My comment above was trying to be funny and didn't take into consideration it was a real issue for you that you are trying to resolve. But I'm certain mylotters are sympathetic to other people's problems.
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@Fa_Maverick (9458)
• Australia
17 Sep 22
@josie_ Yes mylotters are which is why I generally talk to them about things than the people in my life... Apart from my partner of course.
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