Shifting my thoughts

January 23, 2023 1:18am CST
I'm not sure about others, but I believe in the law of attraction. I used to practice it way back then. It was until I became the shock absorber of my former lover that I began to lose my myself. It took time for me to recover after the cheating, manipulation, and all the toxicity that filled me. I'm not even sure if I'm actually okay now, but all I can say is that I'm better than before. Anyhow, going back to the law of attraction, I'm planning to shift my thoughts back and I want to focus only on the things that I want to pull towards me. I know I might sound crazy or cocky to some (or many! LOL) but the attitude of gratitude was something natural to me before my toxic relationship. After that, I find it a challenge to be genuinely okay, genuinely happy... to be me again. I've been overly suspicious. So today, I would like to declare to myself to start recalling and noticing every small detail that makes me happy without doubting, and be grateful for what was, what is, and what will be. This is going to be a rough path for me to to overcome my overwhelming past experience, but I hope I'd be able to pick up some pieces of my old self and be a better version of me. I just thought of sharing this thought here so I can come back to this one day and be able to tell myself: "I made it through, I am now living the better version of me." How about you, do you have a past experience that left a deep scar in your life? Are you still battling through it? If yes, I hope we can all overcome it. Are you one of those who already overcame it? Maybe you can drop a line or two to inspire us about the journey? Thank you for hearing my thoughts today. May we all conquer our Goliaths. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
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@LadyDuck (458760)
• Switzerland
23 Jan 23
When we start to change our habits, we stop enjoying what we used to do, we become stressed only to "please" another, that means that we have to cut that relationship immediately. I hope you can find the right person with whom to enjoy your days.
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@LadyDuck (458760)
• Switzerland
24 Jan 23
@jainaproudmoore This is something you should keep in mind, YOU are the most important person to please, love yourself first. Only if you feel happy and relaxed you are in a good relationship.
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24 Jan 23
Thank you, Anna. Thanks for rooting for me, I appreciate that. I couldn't agree more, it was totally stressful. I'm working on loving myself better right now. I realized I neglected myself all those years just to put that person on a pedestal and help him overcome his insecurities.
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@jstory07 (134508)
• Roseburg, Oregon
23 Jan 23
Good luck with finding a nice person that will respect you and treat you nice.
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23 Jan 23
Thank you, Judy. I appreciate that. I also hope I'd be able to work on myself and be fully healed, so I can also be the right person for my "right person".
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@jstory07 (134508)
• Roseburg, Oregon
23 Jan 23
@jainaproudmoore I hope you find the right person.
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@Shavkat (137221)
• Philippines
23 Jan 23
I wish you all the best in finding the right one.
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24 Jan 23
Thank you Shavkat, I appreciate that.
@sol_cee (38222)
• Philippines
24 Jan 23
Oh my, I can’t imagine how hard it was for you. But you’re willing to start anew and that is surely something. I’m rooting for you
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24 Jan 23
Thanks, @sol_cee! I appreciate that. It was really hard to let go, but looking back, I can't imagine how I managed to keep up in that kind of manipulative-abusive relationship. It was hard, and I think moving forward isn't just baby steps but like a baby, learning to crawl. I hope to become a better version of me moving forwards.
@yoalldudes (35040)
• Philippines
23 Jan 23
I also hit rock bottom. Gratitude and contentment are good practices. I am in a better place at the moment but I still fall down from time to time. Sometimes the key is self care and looking at the good things in life. Escapism works too LOL like sleeping, movies, music, books.
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24 Jan 23
I'm working on that, too. Maybe I should redo my room, too so I can erase traces of his memories, too? I've been binge-watching movies and playing online games to keep my mind busy. And if I have some time, go on a drive somewhere to clear my mind from everything, including work-related thoughts.