19th of May last year, I lost my Leilah.

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Around this time, a year ago today, I had to say goodbye to my Leilah. Having her leave in my arms was one of the most traumatic experiences I have ever been through. And I've been through a lot of traumatic things in my life. But losing her like we did still and will always break my heart over and over whenever I think about her. She came into my life and kept me company through so many ups and downs. Besides the sadness I feel losing her, I am still extremely angered by some family members and friends who were not there for me during this time. The no check ins while she was ill up til she passed to really awful distasteful "jokes" that were made about her passing will never be forgotten or forgiven as not only was that hurtful, but knowing all I did for them when they were going through a rough time didn't seem to be reciprocated in any way shape or form during my rough time. I know that due to her suffering badly with lymphoma, I had to make the decision to let her go. And I feel everything that day played a huge part in this sickness I am feeling since November. Her being sick, her passing in my arms, really added to the stress that was going on in my life at that time. She was honestly amazing. Sometimes a bit b*tchy. But that seems to come with most cat's personality. But there were many times, especially near the end, where she was very affectionate and wanting to be close. I love her and miss her so much. ****photo is mine****