Not well

Canada
December 5, 2006 12:49am CST
I am vert tired right now.My truck was stolen.I have had 3 friends die recently.I have been fighting chronic depression and it is winning.I am not sure of what to do anymore,I just feel like saying goodbye.Could some people respond to this and tell me I am not alone?
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18 responses
@clem9403 (26)
• United States
5 Dec 06
You are not alone! I lost my mom a bit over 2 weeks ago. I have a heavy heart right now. I try staying upbeat but sometimes the sadness takes over. And yes, there was a few times I've thought of saying goodbye...I wanted to be with my mom!! But I know that's not what she would have wanted. So I dismiss that thought. The one thing I try to do when I'm feeling this way is to do something strenuous. Go for a jog, pump some iron...anything that will get me good an tired! That usually helps me cope.
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• Canada
5 Dec 06
I hope i can take that suggestion to fruit,but I am just tired of struggling
• United States
5 Dec 06
I understand. But you have got to have a made up mind...decide you are going to do something and just do it! The sadness and depression can prevent you from taking action, so it will take some will power.
@brendalee (6082)
• United States
5 Dec 06
I have been where you are. There has to be someone that you care about enough to want to fight for,right? Thats how I get out of that mood. I think of people I love and who depend on me. There is a saying I would like to share with you. It has helped me.....When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
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• Canada
5 Dec 06
When/if i can turn the corner and start taking better care,I will look into it.
@LovingIt (5396)
• United States
6 Dec 06
You are not alone! I have been where you are. I won't even try to name what all I've been through because this is about you, not me. I know it feels like the whole world is against you right now, but it's not. You need to get one on one counseling and probably need antidepressants as well. I am currently seeing a therapist once every couple of weeks and taking antidepressants both. By doing both of these I am now coping quite well and even feel happy most days -- a far cry from where I was 6 months ago! Please go get help. If you won't do it for you, do it for those you love and for those that love you.
@LovingIt (5396)
• United States
9 Dec 06
Thanks. I know so much how you are feeling. I wish you the best of luck.
• Canada
8 Dec 06
We are like 2 peas in a pod. I have been on anti-depressants for awhile now and stopped seeing my counsellor about 3 months ago.Thank you very much for replying and know you helped.
@tigrashadow (1086)
• Australia
6 Dec 06
if chronic depression is winning then you need meds...or need new meds...but with the added pressures you have had recently it is understandable....as much as support groups can be good, they can be bad also as you get close to people who have the same feelings but some carry them out...and its not worth it...... you mentioned in another post that you have your soul mate...gain strength and support in knowing you have met your one....i bet they dont want you to say goodbye... therapy or counselling would be helpful. i am finding it is helping me at the moment...it really depends on what issues you have in your life that may have contributed to the depression as to how you can overcome or learn to deal with them. for example...i stress out at seeing people who look less than savoury in the street....i hate judging at first sight without knowing them but ive been held up twice and it stems from that...so my counsellor suggested i listen to music as im walking in the street or shopping so i am distracted from that feeling of stress when i see dodgy looking people.... i find i try to hide my feelings around friends (well the depression) so i actually have an ok time out with friends.... listen to your favourite music when you feel down read a book find a good hobby that you might enjoy never lose hope find even the smallest things that u find pleasure in and run with them but no, you arent alone take care
• Canada
8 Dec 06
Thank you very much for taking the time and understanding to make me realize there are others in the world going thru what I was going thru and that it does not mean to give up.I hope to remember these thoughts if and when I get hit by depression again.
• Australia
9 Dec 06
i hope you keep the strength you have. i too have to remember that there are people who dont want me to disappear...but as i said, if your chronic depression is getting worse and not just because of different situations or events that may have happened...then go get your docs to change meds if you are on them.... some people dont believe in meds...but they have changed over the years and they help us cope so we can function take strength from the love of your life too... and thank you for choosing my response.... take care have a great holiday season....its gotta be better than the stinking hot weather we have here at the moment in south australia LOL
• Anguilla
8 Dec 06
No one is ever alone. I am terrible sorry for you lost. Just remember when you think all is lost someone is praying for you. Thing some how does have a way ofd turning around we at time just have to have some faith.
• Canada
8 Dec 06
The faith is returning.I posted that 4 days ago but it is today I am feeling better about it.Thank you very much for answering my cry.
@emagyne (664)
• United States
5 Dec 06
Sweetie, you are not alone. I just graduated college, cant get hired in my field because I dont have enough experience or enough training. I am a single parent with 2 kids. I dont work. Christmas is here and I have done some crazy things to get my kids christmas. My car is about to break any day now. I dont know what I am going to do from month to month. I suffer from depression, some days im sad, some days im not. I feel very alone all the time. I have tried to say goodbye and it didnt work. (before my kids) I never know what to do and just say to hell with it. But you are not alone. Im sorry to hear about your friends. I know that is hard on you. Especially if they were close. You just have to ask yourself would they want you living like this. Have you tried counseling or groups in your area. My sister actually got depressed and had a nervous breakdown and was hospitalized for a month. She thought she had it bad and had nothing to live for. Upon her stay within a week, she was ready to come home because they had to go to group meeting every day. She found out tht it was people out there who had it far worse than she did and whose life had been far more worse than hers and she started being thankful for the things that she did have. Think about that and I am here if you need to talk.
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@AndreaM76 (1164)
• United States
6 Dec 06
sit down and think to yourself what makes you happy write a list. Think about the list and the people or things that make you the happiest when you have felt happy.Focus your energy on what that is. Really concentrate and bring yourself there ans surrender your pain. You are not alone, share this with people in other blogs or message boards. You will see in general people don't like to see or hear about people suffering with such bad depression. write about it. And I will surely pray for you to have peace and understanding. God Bless.
• Canada
8 Dec 06
Your ideas are great!I find though when I am down like that,I can't think clearly and logically.Thank you also for the prayer!
@Polly1 (12645)
• United States
6 Dec 06
I am so very sorry. My heart and prayers go out to you.
• Canada
8 Dec 06
Thank you for your support.Things seem to be getting sunnier again.
@jade17901 (597)
• United States
6 Dec 06
Sorry to hear about your problems :( I have been having some trouble myself and it sucks! But hang in there, eventually you hit a point where things can only get better! Keep your head up and dont ever think your alone!!
• Canada
8 Dec 06
Thank you,Jade.I have turned the corner and am back to being my OLD self(lol)
@Brandi06 (2227)
• United States
6 Dec 06
it will be ok every thing will get better just give it time
• Canada
8 Dec 06
Thank you very much!I did give it time and 4 days later I have separated the act from being on me to taking a truck
@mbs730 (2147)
• Canada
6 Dec 06
I'm so sorry, you really need someone to give you a big hug. We all go through times when a bunch of things are going badly all at once. Whatever you do, don't say good bye. This is too much for you deal with at once. Have you considered talking with a professional??? It's good to get this off of your chest and not to hold it in.
• Canada
8 Dec 06
Thank you for the support.It was muchly appreciated.It took 4 days to drag myself out of this slump.I hope I can remember this when it happens again(the slump)
@Etharon (217)
• Malaysia
6 Dec 06
I have been there before about 10 yrs ago and know how you must feel being so down. All I can say is that tomorow is another day and things are always different from one day to another. If you'll give yourself a chance to go on, things will work out better. You'll have to work at finding supportive people and positive people to hang out with. 10 yrs on from then, I am now happily married with 2 kids and a great job. Live will always deal us with a tough blow, we just have to take it with a chin up and look forward to the good days. They will come..
• Canada
8 Dec 06
I am happy for you that you had the strength and courage to continue and that now things are betterand you have a support system.Thank you for sharing with me and others here.
@nishas3 (57)
• United States
6 Dec 06
Take a trip. Download some music you have never heard of before, and take a soul searching trip. The way to beat depression is to find something worth fighting for. Its cliche but the funny thing is, alot of the time, cliches are very true.
• Canada
8 Dec 06
Thank you very much!!The suggestions are all good.I have to learn how to take care of me a little better
• India
5 Dec 06
Hello there.. Accept the Present as what it is.That which has happened had to happen.If it didn't ..something else wud have occured bringing the same emotions out of u.These are testing times and u got to bounce back for it's this quality that separetes classes from the masses... wish u good luck.
• Canada
8 Dec 06
It took me 4 days to realize what was wrong with my logic.Thank you!
@Island_Geko (3759)
• Canada
5 Dec 06
You are not alone, I am here for you and will always be here for you. I care about you friend....I need you
• Canada
5 Dec 06
You are my good friend
@cuddiluk (1523)
• Philippines
5 Dec 06
YAh its normal on how you feel. Specially when all important things lost to you. But no one's to be blame for that. You should be strong. Don't think of ending up your miserable life. We have to grow mature in this moment of pain that you have. We should live life to the fullest. God has a reason for this. He knows what is best for you.
• Canada
8 Dec 06
It has taken me 4 days to realize the c4rime was not about me but about possessionj.Thank you
@edras_2 (299)
• United States
5 Dec 06
No,you are not alone,and don't give up,even though it might not seem like it at the moment,life IS worth living.Life is our gift from God,what we do with it up to us.HE gave us eveything we need to survive this world even if you don't think so right now.Everything you need is inside you,sometimes you just have to look a little harder to find it.Have faith, this to shall pass.I,too,lost a dear friend just last week,she had been battling cancer for the last seven years and in the end she was in so much pain and completely ravaged by this horrible cancer that ,as much as we loved her,we were relieved to see her finally let go.But we all still have our faith,as she did.She never gave up,I don't think you either.Please cheer up and try to have aMerry Christmas
• Canada
8 Dec 06
Thank you for the words of encouragement!It has taken me 4 days to separate the idea that they stole from someone,not me personally
@edras_2 (299)
• United States
5 Dec 06
No,you are not alone,and don't give up,even though it might not seem like it at the moment,life IS worth living.Life is our gift from God,what we do with it up to us.HE gave us eveything we need to survive this world even if you don't think so right now.Everything you need is inside you,sometimes you just have to look a little harder to find it.Have faith, this to shall pass.I,too,lost a dear friend just last week,she had been battling cancer for the last seven years and in the end she was in so much pain and completely ravaged by this horrible cancer that ,as much as we loved her,we were relieved to see her finally let go.But we all still have our faith,as she did.She never gave up,I don't think you either.Please cheer up and try to have aMerry Christmas