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There has to be something that will encourage you not to die as I believe that success in life can come only when we are optimistic in life so try to be positive and try to get the best out of your life.................

Why not? Life is what you make it. You don't want to die. When it is your time, you will, but not until then. You have a purpose in life, you just have to search and find what it is. Don't give up on life, it is too precious. I am suggesting you talk to someone, a counselor, teacher, friend, parent.