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I have the same problems you do, and i used to get really bad even sitting in my house thinking, reading a book, or even just watching tv, it never changed... It was so bad at times, i could just be on the phone and i would have a panic attack... This last while (Probably a few months) it's gotten so much better. I can go shopping even and not get a panic attack being right next to someone, i can do almost anything.... and i think it has a lot to do with the fact that things are so much better. I'm taking a herb and several vitamins, keeping myself fit and healthy to the bone and I'm feeling exceptional. Some people think it's bad for me to lock myself away in the house, but truly, i think it's because i feel so good, i don't want to ruin it... And when i do go out, it feels better to go out knowing full well that I'm feeling good, and can take whatever comes my way. don't worry, if your having such a good time I'm sure it's not going to change from home or out in the open, if you want try going out and spending time with friends or something once in a while, see how it reacts. If you feel better doing what your doing then don't stop, because no one knows what's best for you but, yes that's right, yourself. Best wishes hun

Well when you are in that kind of emotional rut its healthy to have time to yourself for a while. You do this to comfort and protect yourself. When you are ready, force yourself to go out there and live again. Start small, maybe call a friend or go to a public event. Gradually you'll find yourself at a comfortable lively level. When you feel upset in a number of different ways, you can either find ways to comfort yourself or find comfort in others. Do NOT start depending on other to comfort you because when they don't become available you'll be back to the beginning again. If you feel like you want to start improving your life slowly, find things to do for yourself first. Take a bubble bath, do a beaty treatment, go shopping, all healthy things that boost the happy chemicals. Then start small, like think of who's birthdays are coming up or what things you've ignored that deserve your attention. Did you put offf congradulating somebody? Has it been a while since you returned something you borrowed? Did you miss a birthday or event? Going back to these things for a small conversation or interaction will be healthy because not only are you now interacting with more people, but you are scratching to-do things off a list you've turned into a mental weight. Hope this helps? PS- you have kids, so it might be a good idea to get together with other friends who have kids, it would be a good place to start.

I have my sister who also dosent have too much interaction at a social level and is more involved with her family and kids. But i dont see anything wrong with her. But she dosent shut herself away from the world but keeps those interactions at a minimum level.I think you shoul also read some very good books besides spending time with the computer.Books which can stimulate you positively and hepl you from relapsing into depression are good.But if you find out that you are not even content with your family and children i think it is good to consult a doctor.