I'll be seeing you soon my love

@pagibig (300)
Philippines
February 25, 2007 8:27am CST
After 10 months of good times and bad times, after all the predicaments and hurdles my boyfriend and I have gone through, this one would prove to be the toughest. He is going away. In 3 days he'll be gone for 2 years. And we're gonna try to make it, despite the distance. This is a sacrifice that he has to do for himself. To finally be independent from his family, to save up for us, and to prove to himself that he is worth something. We are both considered failures in both our families. That's probably why we understand each other so much. We both needed to prove that we are not failures, and that we are worth something. I'm nearing breakdown trying to be a superwoman for my family, but despite that, i manage to make time for this relationship. However, he can't seem to find that balance. When we got the news that he got a job out of the country, we both had mixed emotions. I am happy for him, because this is his chance to prove to everybody that he is not a failure. But i am also sad, because i will not be there to support him. Despite all the fights and the arguments, the break ups and the make ups, we love each other deeply. I was there when he had nothing, I was there to support him, we might have our differences, i might not like the situation, but i have always stood by his side. Loving him, caring for him and supporting him. I'm afraid that the distance might draw us apart. I'm afraid for him to fall in love with somebody else. 2 years, that's how long we have to wait. 2 years of limited communications, 2 years of uncertainty. My only hold on him is that i loved him when he had nothing. When i met him, he didn't have a job. He was just this great guy, boggled down by his family, who thinks he is a loser. I saw something more in him. It was love at first sight. I loved him the moment i met him. I encouraged him, i made him believe in himself. I encouraged him to find a job, do something with his life. Not for me, but for him. And he did. Now, he has a chance for a better life. A life that i hope to share in the future. But i have no control over the future, all i can do is hope that he and i can survive this. And if we don't, then he'll always remember me as that girl, who loved him despite everything. He said he'll be leaving half of his life behind and that's me. He said he has never been happy before he met me. And that love, our love will help us through. I hope and i pray we make it. Because i have given him my whole heart. I don't want to fall in love again. I want him to be my last love. Soon my love, if fate allows us, soon we'll see each other again. 2 years is a long time, but 2 years will go by so quickly when we make the most out of it. Take care and i love you always.
3 responses
• United States
25 Feb 07
I too was faced with a similar situation. It was less then a year though. The one thing I can say is to make sure he knows that you still love him, and keep the lines of communication open. Send him cards, e-cards, emails and care packages. It makes a world of difference. If it really was meant to be, you'll find out it was meant to be. Best of luck to you!! :)
@pagibig (300)
• Philippines
26 Feb 07
We spent the afternoon together. Tomorrow he is going away. Tomorrow will be the start of another obstacle. We talked, we know we love each other, so we'll try. There is no choice but to try. We talked about the future, and that if we survive the 2 years apart, when he comes back, we'll start our lives together. I am happy with him, despite the fights. And I make him happy, despite the fights. He wanted to get married when he comes back. But we both know that a lot could happen in between. We plan to save up as much as we can, so when he comes back, we will both be financially stable (hopefully). Although that is actually just the plan B. Plan A, is when he's settled abroad, he'll get me. So i can work there as well, get better pay and be with him at the same time. Hope it works.
@pagibig (300)
• Philippines
27 Feb 07
Babe, this is the start of a new chapter in your life. You are gone. I only wish you happiness and luck and success. Know that i'll be waiting for you. It would be a long time before i see you or hold you again. That time night not even come. You are gone and i am filled with uncertainty. Only a simple message from you could quell all fears and doubts. You are probably on the plane now, on your way to your new life. Remember me. Remember that i love you, remember your promise, our promises and the plans we have made. That's the only thing that's keeping me alive. The only thing i can keep, your memories and your promises. Remember my love. I love you.
@crosa125 (1484)
25 Feb 07
hey i have to say you got a very difficult life,and now he is going awy,i can see you love him so much.i hope he knows what is he doing and if he dosen't come back to you what is he going to lose,i don't think it is easy to find a girl like you,let me tell you this,i made the same mistake,when i find it out what a big mistake i made,she was already gone and every day i hope i can have her back.i hope he is not going to make the same mistake,wish you both good luck,you need it
• United States
25 Feb 07
If you both are really committed to making it work then it will. If your love is that strong and you both want it he will be back to get you in two years. If it is met to be it will. Love is a wonderful thing and I have been married for 26 years now and raised two kids and if make it through raising kids that is a big accomplishment in my book. He is my best friend and have been together since I was 16 and it is the best to know you will have someone to be with. You just have to have some faith in him that he loves you like he says he does and I do think he needs to prove himself so that he feels good about him and then he will feel really good about your relationship. It will make it much stronger then. They say being apart makes the heart grow fonder. Just keept that hope there always.