I'll be seeing you soon my love

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After 10 months of good times and bad times, after all the predicaments and hurdles my boyfriend and I have gone through, this one would prove to be the toughest. He is going away. In 3 days he'll be gone for 2 years. And we're gonna try to make it, despite the distance. This is a sacrifice that he has to do for himself. To finally be independent from his family, to save up for us, and to prove to himself that he is worth something. We are both considered failures in both our families. That's probably why we understand each other so much. We both needed to prove that we are not failures, and that we are worth something. I'm nearing breakdown trying to be a superwoman for my family, but despite that, i manage to make time for this relationship. However, he can't seem to find that balance. When we got the news that he got a job out of the country, we both had mixed emotions. I am happy for him, because this is his chance to prove to everybody that he is not a failure. But i am also sad, because i will not be there to support him. Despite all the fights and the arguments, the break ups and the make ups, we love each other deeply. I was there when he had nothing, I was there to support him, we might have our differences, i might not like the situation, but i have always stood by his side. Loving him, caring for him and supporting him. I'm afraid that the distance might draw us apart. I'm afraid for him to fall in love with somebody else. 2 years, that's how long we have to wait. 2 years of limited communications, 2 years of uncertainty. My only hold on him is that i loved him when he had nothing. When i met him, he didn't have a job. He was just this great guy, boggled down by his family, who thinks he is a loser. I saw something more in him. It was love at first sight. I loved him the moment i met him. I encouraged him, i made him believe in himself. I encouraged him to find a job, do something with his life. Not for me, but for him. And he did. Now, he has a chance for a better life. A life that i hope to share in the future. But i have no control over the future, all i can do is hope that he and i can survive this. And if we don't, then he'll always remember me as that girl, who loved him despite everything. He said he'll be leaving half of his life behind and that's me. He said he has never been happy before he met me. And that love, our love will help us through. I hope and i pray we make it. Because i have given him my whole heart. I don't want to fall in love again. I want him to be my last love. Soon my love, if fate allows us, soon we'll see each other again. 2 years is a long time, but 2 years will go by so quickly when we make the most out of it. Take care and i love you always.