Why aren't we content?
February 27, 2007 10:53pm CST
So this has been on my mind for a while. It seems like no one is really happy. There are times when we are happy but not truly, deeply happy. It seems like we're all looking for something. Something more, something less....just....something. I'll be 33 in April and I still have yet to figure out what I want to do with my life. And for some reason lately I've felt a sense of urgency like if I don't figure it out now, I'll never know. I had a good job in corporate America then got pregnant and became a stay at home mom. My little girl just started Kindergarten this past fall and I want to go back to work but I don't have a college degree. I have a ton of life experience but no degree. So now we're dealing with money issues: I have to work and there is no time for me to go back to school which to be honest really frustrates me. While I was a stay at home mom I worked two jobs to put my husband through nursing school (one from home & the other nights). He wants me to be able to go to school really bad, but we just can't find the money to do it. We make too much to qualify for student loans (we don't make that much though!). But here's my question: Is it unfair of me to want more for myself? I have a beautiful little girl, a great husband, a house, food on my table and a roof over my head. And I am grateful. But I feel so unfulfilled. And the more I talk to people the more I realize that I'm not the only one. My best friend is highly successful in her career but doesn't have any children. I guess what I'm trying to say is that we all want something that seems just out of our reach. How do we find the contentment with what we have instead of always wanting more? Or should we be content? Maybe thats just our nature to keep striving to do better. Life can be so difficult sometimes just figuring it all out, ya know? But I suppose these are the lessons we're here to learn. After all, they say that its the journey thats important and not the destination!