Why do I feel this way?

I'm so sorry that you feel this way. It sounds like you may need to try different meds. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right one. It sounds like your depression is chemical or biological so there may not be anything you can do except get on some better meds.

I understand how you feel. I feel the same way. But please, don't do anything to hurt yourself. The effects on your daughters would be terrible. Talk to your doctor about adjusting your meds. I understand that you don't want to wake up. And your mind just seems to keep thinking about ways to end your life, but if this continues, you need to tell your doctor. If you are a danger to yourself, your doctor needs to know it. Are you a religious person? Romans 8:28 says that all things work for good to those who trust in God. Someday, you will be able to help someone else who is in the same way and they don't know what to do. Someday, you will be needed to help someone else. I try to remind myself that someday I will be able to help someone else and that is reason enough to stay alive. It doesn't sound like much, but it helps me. And then there are your daughters. You must know that if you do something to kill yourself, your daughters will never get over it. I still remember when my mother tried to kill herself when I was 7 years old. Your daughters need you.

Ohh Sweety...I feel for you..i really do.. I have a friend heer that goes threw the same thing..she had a tumor in her brain..and several brain surgeries and somehting keeps happeneing..she is ready to throw in the towel as well,, Thats where trying to keep friends and family close..really close when u feel this way..Have u tried to see what meetings if any your community hasd? maybe a group to talk to? And i would deff talk to ur doc and tell him whats happening..and Yes your girls need you..because u know damn well u cant reply on your hubby..thats always oin jail..and that would emotionally and physically destroy them!! When u have this strong feelings and u have no one to talk to...this may sound korny to u..but talk to mother and father God..they are there,,:)

i feel i get refreshed after having my chocolates. And best remedy is Meditation, try breathing exercise, it will help you balance and handle depression.