if im not happy, then its not yet the end

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Ever had the feeling that you need to go away from something you have lived and used to all your life?! That at one point in your life, you close achapter -opening another in a different place. Without your starting a different life with yourself changed. Its hard to avoid or to stop something you don't know its happening. Obviously, to do that, you need to at least figure it out to trigger it down. 15 years I've lived in a simple life. Waking up every morning, then going to school as ever other children in our community do. I didn't have a clue that after a year or another I won't be doing the same thing. I won't be going to the same school anymore. not with the same friends. Not even living in the same place. I was simple. I was content. I care more on what i have and less on what i dont. I had a girlfriend at that time. She was a collection of beauty and goodness. Pretty much of every good impression you can make to a girl. She was smart and I admired every bit of herself. Yea, I was happy at that time. But I have to go?! I have to move to another place. I have to be far away. Sometimes life is lame having your parents to decide on what will hapen in your life. They intervene so much. Though, I know its going to beneift me in the long run. And yea, its gonna be alright. But it wasn't at first. I didn't know its gonna break my heart in the first couple of days. I woke up Greenwich Mean Time +0:00. I am shivering, It was different. "Mom?! is that you?!" after 2 years of being far away from her. The good thing about it is we're now complete. I looked outside the window. No children meanining no more afternoon playtime hide and seeks. Or maybe there was children. I managed to ignore. They're all strangers to me or should I say I was to them. I am in England now. I broke up with my girlfriend after a year of being far away. It was a lovely 2 years with her. And it was a wrong choice. Wrong choice of giving her up. I screwed up and I still don't get how i managed to "not see" what she has done for me. But who knows?! sometime, someday. our roads gonna cross again. every story has a happy ending. And if I'm not happy. then its not yet the end.