Do you usually feel numb when you're so mad?
March 12, 2007 3:29am CST
I had a fight with my brother just recently. Me being short compare to him, he was like almost 6 feet tall and I'm only 5 feet. I was completely over powered. We were hitting each other in the face, arms etc. I was so mad that I could'nt barely feel the punches he threw at me. Its only now that I noticed and completely got into me on how bad was I beaten. When I took a shower this morning, the familiar purple colored showed up on one of my arm. I could'nt recall the pain back then all that I can remember was the fight we had. I was about to show it to my mom, I hesitated though. I am pretty sure she would juts sigh and say "Are you trying to kill each other?", I just dont get it. I was the one doing her job, telling my older brother that what he had done is not right and yet all I can get from her is just a sigh. She really loves my brother more than she ever loved me my entire life. I know that now. =
12 Mar 07
I think one always feels the pain later on. When you are angry and fighting your adrenaline is pumping, it is not until you have calmed down that you feel the pain and are able to access your injuries. Then I think that there are times that things may look worse than they actually are and cause us to panic and feel like we are in more pain than we are. I don't think it is a good idea to assume your mother loves your brother more or that he is the favorite, your mom is just probably able to see things from a different perspective than you are. Unless she says so are does something really unfair, I would probably just mention to her how I am feeling and allow her to reassure you.
12 Mar 07
I guess so. It took 2 days for my bruises to showed up. They've probably decided that their presence is needed. LOL! Kidding aside. I really dont know what runs on my mom's mind. Maybe till I get to be a mother, by then maybe I could completely understands her rationale about things, with me and my brother. Thanks for the comment.