what meds work the best for you?

well i have had bi polar for 16 years since my oldest child was born, i went thru 2 terrible pregnancys where both father left me .. presently i take these meds, zoloft risperidol, and depokote i have been on depokota the whole the others are add ons they work pretty good i sure can tell with out it.. but i still deal with depression, lows aand highs,more lows then high, and am starting to have some panic attacks about going places currently im trying to get dissability because i cant go to work. fear of people, ive been hospitalized a bunch of times and lost one of my kid due to this my husband is very understanding at times but it has been hard on us me not working, and he does'nt want to listen to me anymore when i need to talk, were not as close as we use to be, my mom thinks hes waiting until i get the diasbility then gonna run, ive thought about that but i dont really think he would, it is possible, i know he's talking about buying land for hunting when we get it.. the reason she thinks that is because of me ive not been the best wife, and ive let myself go vey bad its liek i dont care anymore i sleep more often then not and he hate that, im in a real slump and anyone els would have been gone.. so why is he staying, my first husband could'nt handle it so he cheated while i was pregnant now he has my daughter, we foght a might battle and he won everyone thinks im nuts hes on the fire dept up there we he lives and thats where the court was taken place at.. so i dont think ihad a chance, now my daughter is pulling her hair out by the hands full she says she loves it up there and has lots of friends, i see her every other weekend, but her dad is an to me and always will be... i need to make some changes in the way the visitation is but dont have the money to go back to court rightnow, just like he has full control, like last weekend was her spring break and i did'nt even get her 1 day because his mom took her to smokey mts for a weeks vacation.. his family is really good to her but that was wrong to me.... nothing i could do about it for now though.. ive bit my tongue so many times it s not funny.... he took her to a phy for pulling her hair they said she has a diseas called trica something and that all her hair could come out she looks really bad.. looks like someone has cut her hair uneven. i was so mad i called social services and they said there was nothing they could do if he had taken her to the dr. that so wrong they could have at least checked it out. but they did'nt once again he has pull from his job ... i will put some pic of her on here when i can get it to upload im havein problems right now.. with it.. but hope to fix itsoon she has red hair and is so adorable and it hurt so bad to see her after she pulled her hair and looked that way..sometimes i wonder what i did to deserve all this i feel like im being punished, and its notgetting easier.. im still very much depressed.. i wuldlove to be your friend suzanne

What do you take? lithium, that's the only one I know of for bi polar. I am blessed that its just depression with me and I take citalopram twice a day and it works thank God, and I mean thank God because without I do believe I would not be functioning as well as I do. Welcome to mylot, there are lots of us here who suffer from depression always here to lend a listening ear. Bright Blessings.

I take valproic acid, it's in the family of lithium. It suits my illness better. They do a blood level test every three months to make sure my liver isn't going to fail soon.