has cancer ruined your life?? it truned mine inside out, lol!!

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i would like to thank those who have shared. maybe i do sound as if i am feeling sorry for myself. i am only 44 now, i was 40 when it started. i had a good life great job, my own tree service, all the trucks and equipment. i loved my work, the outdoors, and my life. after the treatment i have been totally bed ridden two and a half of the four years. i have been on morphine since the third week of treatment. the way my body has reacted to the radiation is un heard of. i had 38 radiation treatments, and the chemo a 5fu, i was to have more of both but i was in such bad shape the doctors were afraid to proceed. even though i am ubeat, i have been buying and selling on ebay three years now, makes me feel a little useful. what i am looking for is anyone who might have a clue what is happening to me. i have been to four states and 5 oncologists 3 surgeons, 4 raiaologists, 2 infectious disease specialists and no body has seen a case like mine. i can get absolutely no prognosis at all. only maybe this maybe that. my hope is to find another person who may have seen or had a case as mine. i am soon to undergo a major tissue transplant operation. removal of my rectum rectal canal and about a large grapefruit amount of surrounding dead or dying tissue. i wish there were another answer. if this fails i will die. i wish they could say what is wrong some of the doctors think it maybe infection only, which i have had two bad ones one fungal, one bacterial. they almost killed me. anyway they think the fungal infection may still be there causing the irritation that leads to the tissue breakdown. sorry so long if you know anything please help. thanks for the web sites but they do not describe my symptoms.