Would you fight for your life?

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A man beat me to a pulp, and I slowly began to realize that my life has got to change. My whole life I struggled to overcome the issues of childhood abuse. Most of it was mental and that is why I can't get rid of the shadow hanging over my head. Most people know someone in a situation like mine and the only response I seem to get is, "I'm sorry you had such a rough life." My objective is to invite people to tell their story without ridicule or apprehension. It may come to you as a newsflash in some cases, but one thing I've learned is that if you want the circumstances to change, then change them for yourself. Helping others is next; its one of my interests. I'd like for people to open discussions that are tabu in being a survivor these days, since drugs and alcohol are so much more prevelant and devistating to users. I want to invite people to give their opinion on this topic, because I can better educate myself and my children. My story comes from being a second child of my mother's and a third child of my father's. I am the only girl and the youngest of my siblings. My mother liked drugs and all their wickedness. My father sets the bottle down about every five minutes and lifts it up every two minutes. I'm sure you can relate to what I mean. School got me through, helped me focus on not being like them. I went as far as 3 years into the school of nursing at the university, but my life changed for the worst and I made a few bad choices. I married to soon, and didn't finish school. My mother passed away shortly after, and that helps me cope with the ill feelings of loneliness. She is probably the reason I hate to be left by myself, especially at night. I might not like being alone, because those also were the times that my foster brother had molested me. My father is still living, but I feel it would be best that he go anytime. He'd gives himself and I grief. I can't be around anyone who drinks alcohol, becuase I now hate the smell. It reminds me of bad things as well. Worst of all is that I used to have choose relationships involving drug and alcohol abuse. I thought that if I couldn't change my parents then I would change my partner. That never worked and when I man took it upon himself to try to take my life, that helped me change my mind about everything in my world. I now put myself before others and just ask them to bear me! Do you have a challenge to overcome? Would you please not leave me alone? theponch's wife