pregnant with twins..then finding out you lost one..has anyone experienced this?

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ok well after a very heartbreaking miscarriage in Jan at 3 months along my husband and i decided in may we were ready to try again for our 3rd child and it took immediately i was pregant within weeks, of course on top of bein excited there was also that fear in me of another loss so i was stuck on the fence between happiness and worry. all i wanted was to have an ultrasound and see my little ones heartbeat well i went to the dr and he told me i see a heartbeat and printed out the picture i couldnt stop glowing and smiling thats all i needed to hear of course i was still early enough along that it could go either way but i needed to hear those words to help me through the next month and a half till i was out of the clear. but then there cam a but.. he said yes you have what seems to be healthy baby growing inside of you but i see that there was in deed twins and at 5 weeks he/she stopped developing which he calls vanishing twin syndrome , in this case i dont actually miscarry the baby before 12weeks along if this happens then the baby kind of vanishined into my uterus i was shocked twins was what i was actually hoping for depe down because my husband said this is our last pregnancy and twins meant a bigger family. so now im all confused im happy to know i have one baby that they say SHOULD survive and make it to term and then im heartbroken to know i lost another child and in a short period of time. once again im back on the fence one side with grief and the other with happiness. not to mention the fear has all resurfaced again in fear of losing this baby or something going wrong. has anyone experienced anything like this or similar to this which had a happy ending if so please share i need some reassurance!