i just miss them...

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Weird. I do not want to be hostile. I hate acting like I am hostile to him. I love him. But I can not say or demonstrate that I love him. I miss the old him. He is so busy working his as*-off. I know his priority is his family, and I respect him for that. It's just that... I still am fixated with "what has been". I have a hard time moving on, although I love his son so much. I know I sound pathetic, but really, I miss my kuya (older brother). Weird. We are so near each other, but, my stinking pride and weird personality make me the indifferent sister... the indifferent biatchy sister.