 Once upon my youth on a rainy day, and a rainy evening
A hurried love making to end the rainy evening.
I looked up as she already dressed, opened and went out the door
At that time I never knew that I'd see her thus no more.
A minute later, buttoning my shirt,
Brakes squealed, a thud, thought I, 'Oh my someone's badly
hurt!
Dressed I walked out of our love nest,
To see a crowd collected, an acquittance my palm suddenly pressed.
Heart thumping, breath stopping, I rushed to the spot
The crowd parted, many I knew, many not.
There I saw her lying limbs spread, and then I began to lose my mind
And I bent, I felt her still heart that just a few moments ago beat next to mine.
'She's gone', said someone as if from such a distance
while pulling me up, I offered no resistance.
'My love, my love, my love, come back come back!' said my silent scream,
Is this just a bad nightmare, just a dream? Asked again and again I, 'Is this just a dream?'
Followed by the sorrow, anger filled my heart,
I turned to the cowering drunk whose driving did tear us apart.
I wanted to hit out at him, to do what he did to her,
I raised my fist and suddenly his wife, she did appear.
'Spare him, spare him', I sensed the pleading in her eyes
She too must love him as I did my love, so did I have a choice?
I looked at my lover and covered her with my coat
I turned away my heart leaden, sobs arising deep from my throat.
'Why, oh why, in our lovemaking did we tarry so?
Couldn't we have left together sooner, my love, my love, now you are no more!'
Darkness then descended upon me, life entered a limbo from which seemed no return.
The pain, the grief so intense, nothing mattered, everything seemed colorless with no pattern .................
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The above actually is the first part of the poem. I have already posted the second part on mylot more than half a year ago, you can find it on this
link:
http://www.mylot.com/w/discussions/1163812.aspx
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I am copy pasting the part that is the continuation of this one:
QUOTE:
...The pain, the sorrow as I beheld her mangled form splayed
And wanted to smash the evil face of the drunken driver so dismayed.
Would I ever love again, would I ever have the same feeling,
Like the ones I did when I made love to my lost love?
How could I ever control my raving mind's screaming?
Life to me then it seemed to me was all push and shove!
My life it was a mess, and then after a couple of years I did transgress,
And did chase and charm to conquer, I confess.
No,I couldn't feel anything, nothing at all, the pain of loss so intense,
Yet continue to philander did I, though I knew it made no sense.
Until another early rain in spring, well, actually a thundershower,
I met her, and wooed her and her I tried with my charm to overpower.
She told me and showed me my true face then in a mirror so real,
My true face so ghastly, so ghostly, so ghoulish, so surreal!
Ashamed was I, how, when, why did I lose myself, my humanity?
Gentle and understanding was she and became my wife,
Retaught me and helped me, I say with all humility.
And brought me all the joys and pleasures that make up our life!
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Life's Lovely! Love & Live Life! Live & Let Live!
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