The One They All Ignore

I do not mind talking about my disorder at all. Although, there are many times when I am not allowed to mention it because medi-cal is not willing to pay for therapy for someone with this personality disorder. They believe that we will never get better. So I have become some what of an advocate for people with my disorder. I have come across other people on Mylot who have the same and I have talked about it before. I can not afford to be embarrassed because so many people say negative things about the ones with this illness. Basically, I am a result of what happens to abused and neglected children(mostly girls). It is the most painful disorder and the hardest to treat. I do not feel sorry for myself though, I know that everything happens for a reason. I thank God that my mental issues do not affect my intelligence. It only affects my emotions. The other day, one of the new staff here told me that because of my mental illness, no one was going to listen to me. That comment got me an hour long meeting with the admistrator, assistant administrator, and for some reason the account. They were asking me if I would be willing to allow them to attempt to handle this staff, instead of calling state licensing to get her fired. I agreed because it was the right thing to do. But that comment had a very frightening impact on me. That is one of the major fears in the mental health community. That we will not be heard. I was up all night trying to calm down from that one. But all and all, I feel that I have improved a lot in recent years. It is rumored that Princess Diana and a few other celebrites have had the same disorder. But again, no one wants to speak of it.