Marry the one you love or Marry the one who loves you?

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ten years ago, i married the person i love so dearly. i was so in love with him that i did not care if he doesn't love me. we were engaged for 7 yrs before we got married. actually, i thought of breaking up with him on our 6th year (even though I'm so in love with him) because our relationship was not going anywhere. on the day i plan to break up with, he surprisingly offered me marriage. i was so thrilled because that is what i was waiting for...so i said yes. although, i felt that there was something odd in the offer...coz it came out of nothing. i had a feeling then that he offered me marriage because he had invested a lot on our relationship (that it would be hard to find another person as stupid as me) or maybe bacause he "thought" that he loves me. When I told my friends about getting married, they said I'm stupid. that I should have sticked to my first decision. They told me I can find a better partner. They reminded me of the problems I had with my boyfriend, the constant emotional hurt he gave ( by not remembering my birthday, by letting me wait for more than 3 hours on dates or worst not showing up because he went out with his friends, by not calling me for 1 week not even a hi-hello, by criticizing me in front of my friends and a lot more - to sum it up he never made me special). But I was so in love with him that I didn't listen to any of friends advice. After ten years of being married, and having 2 kids, he's still the same. There were some improvements like he holds my hand in public at times and put his arms on my shoulder. I still love him but sometimes I can't help but think if he really loves me. What if he finds that one person that he will truly fall in love with? what if he suddenly realize that he really doesn't love me at all? what will happen to me and my kids? With all the things the I'm feeling right now, I can't help but ask my self if i made the right decision. Am I right to marry the person I'm so in love with?