In a deep depression  

Thankyou very much. It is hard for me to see that through all the depression, but I will try. Thankyou for the prayer. I hope the someday things will be better. I just wish they were now.

Thankyou angrierkitty,
And I love the pic of your kitty. Very beautiful! What helps me to get out of the depression is my kitty. That is his pic. But that is only temporary. I just had to get it out, so I came here and posted. I was crying. I just couldn't take it anymore. I don't know why. Thanks for your suggestions. Take care.

You have a beautiful cat too, and I'm sure your kitty wants mommy tobe happy. They are a great comfport, aren't they? I'm sorry that things are so hard for you rihgt now, but you've found the right place to let it out! There are a lot of nice people here who will be your firned and even if we can't make your situation better, we may be able to help you get your mind off things for a while!

Big Hugs to you and your sweet kitty! May the sun shine again for you and soon.

thanks and give hugs to your kitty to! I will keep coming here because there are nice people here to make me forget!

Catsanddogs,
Thankyou so much for your post. I am sorry you have had these thoughts. Do you have noisy neighbors to? I do have suicidal thoughts to sometimes but then I think of my son and I don't allow myself to go there. As for a lawyer, I cant afford one. I also called legal aid and they told me to call them when I go in front of the judge. So I will. I also have two of my senators helping me with my case. So I am hopefull. I go for a medical exam next month. I hope to have an answer soon there after. I plan on going all the way. I am not giving up. I have earplugs so that is helpful. I wish I could go to the park but it is winter here and we are in the middle of a blizzard right now! I am a little better today, I think she may have heard my breakdown yesterday because it got quiet after. Not silence, but better than it was. So thankyou I will try to hang in there.

Thankyou. And thanks for the prayer. I just hope I will be able to get out of here soon. Thanks again.

Thankyou ambiepam,
I really appreciate it. I feel like I need a miracle. To keep my sanity. So I always turn to prayer.

Thankyou polly,
That is enough. Thankyou. I would just like someone to pray that God will show me the way to find a new home. That is all I want. I can not recover from my ailments. They are permenant. But getting a new home would really help my health. Because then I would be much happier. And it is not just the noise, all the other tenants are just like her. They all make noise. And this apartment is so small we are really cramped. A new home would lift my spirits so much. Thankyou again.

Yes I am. I believe prayer is so healing. Thankyou so much for your prayer. It will really help me.

Dear heavenly Father, I pray for my friend here on the internet. I don't really know her, but Lord, I know that you know everything about her. You even have the hairs on her head numbered. You see her situation. You see her depression. And you also see the faith she has in You. There is nothing about her that is hidden from Your eyes. You know that she is searching for a way out of her situation. Lord, we believe that with you all things are possible and all you would have to do is speak, Lord and it would be so. We pray that you would do this for her. We pray that especially your will would be done in her life. This may be a solution that we do not see. But your ways are higher than ours and more than likely, you will surprise us in the way you answer this prayer, Lord! Give her a peace that passes all understanding. Help her to be content in her situation as she waits upon you with hope and anticipation. Give her a love for this neighbor who has made things difficult for her. Help her to see this person as you see them. Show her how to radiate your love for this person, even though she may not feel like doing so. Again, we pray for your will to be done.
In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

I have been in depression in my life and my heart hurts for you. But I know that God loves you and has plans to prosper you and not to harm you! He is not out to get you. He can give you all the strength you need. You did the right thing by reaching out to others!
God bless you and keep you. heidi

Thankyou Heidi
Your prayer made me feel a little better. It is hard to think of her that way because she has made my life difficult, but I will try. I do pray every night that things will get better. I know they will.

I'm really glad to hear that it helped even a little bit. Keep praying, friend!

Dont you ever wish you could just throw the depression away? I know I do. But I have had it all my life and I know I cant throw it away. I know exercise helps so much but I just havent had the energy. Right now it seems like a miracle on getting a new place. But I wont give up. Thanks.

I sure do! But I have chronic and severe and have found no medication that helps. Excet one that is too expensive for me and no aid to help pay for it. So, you have to go other avenues. You have to realize it is something you will have with you all your life in some form or another and just learn to live with it.

Thankyou. I just keep wondering why he keeps giving me these obstacles. It is so much to bear. I will continue to pray

Thankyou so much. I think they are idiots to. And they won't do anything to stop it. They say she has a right to be happy here. Well, what about me?? I don't know why they rent to kids. They should only give them downstairs units. Things will get better once I am able to move out. Cause I don't see her changing anytime soon.