Torn In 5
By momshonna
@momshonna (1)
United States
February 2, 2009 5:13am CST
4 children suffer day to day hearing the fights. 2 Step and 2 his and mine. I shouldnt stay. 7 years of torment and abuse. No Love From him. I sleep alone. Cheated on more than a hand can count. I am 23, Gorgeous in everyone elses eyes but I no longer see it. He is 38, overweight, Short, Grey, Angry! Why do I stay? I am 5'8" 135 Lbs, Sky blue eyes and so much more. I cant understand myself. I love this ogre so much but I hurt so bad. I love with all of me and get scraps thrown back in my face. What is the problem? I have tried to let go but I always come back. Even after being physically abused on more than one occasion in one of his drunken stupors. I need to do something I am MISERABLE!!! Any advise Please?
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@AnnieOakley1 (5596)
• Canada
4 Feb 09
It is very obvious that you should leave him, my dear.
Start applying for jobs if you haven't got one now. Save up your money in a separate bank account until you have enough for 2 mos rent, utilities and food for you and your children and RUN!
Otherwise you deserve what you get, if you won't do anything to change the situtation or get out. You can't just sit there feeling sorry for yourself. Nobody will have sympathy for you and help you if you keep going back to this environment, so you are your own worst enemy. YOU MUST DO SOMETHING! It's that simple.
There are women's shelters that will help you get counselling, get a job, get daycare, get a new safe place to live.
Have you spoken to him about improving anything? Tried couples counselling?
